Question: Why do we not see any changes in the external behavior of the teacher in states of ascents and descents, while we do see such changes in the friends? How do you manage to be so full of energy all the time, while others are in states of ascents and descents?
Answer: I have already been through the states that you are in. Long ago I attained the recognition that these states are fleeting, and that following the evening comes the night, that after the night comes the morning, and then daytime, and that they are all helpful states.
I have understood that I must lower my head and wait, and that I may even hasten the time of dawn, the spiritual light. This is the reason that I am always in a state in which I can occupy myself by doing something.
There are states in which I must watch a political or social TV program that helps me think so that I can build up the necessary vocabulary and terminology and to understand better what is happening in the world, etc.
Other than that, I write posts on Twitter, I have meetings with the writers, who write articles to the press, several times a week. I participate in filming sessions of programs on a variety of different topics related to the wisdom of Kabbalah, psychology, etc., and I give evening lessons about The Book of Zohar. So, you can see that I work all the time.
I want to share a secret with you: I engage in different parts of the wisdom of Kabbalah according to the state I am in. There is no need, for example, for special sensitivity in order to study “The Preface to the Wisdom of Kabbalah,” or The Study of the Ten Sefirot. So, when my feelings become numb and I become like a log, I turn to these parts. On the other hand, when my feelings come to life, I engage in studying the articles in Shamati or the articles of Rabash.
Every day I need to prepare for the next day’s lesson. If the lesson begins at three am, I wake up two hours before the lesson, take a hot shower, warm myself up and make sure that I will not fall asleep. I have been living according to this schedule for over forty years, and so I have developed this habit.
I take my work very seriously. Although I know the material, I go over it before the lesson in order to get into the topic, to get into the state in which I can connect with the students, and to be ready for the contact with them, to feel them, so that they will be able to feel me.
At the beginning of every lesson, I introduce the topic to them for ten-fifteen minutes and try to present it to them in a new way. This means that it is highly creative work that requires constant mental effort, so even when I sleep, these thoughts do not leave me, and I experience it all inside me.
The students are the most important thing that I have. I relate to them with great awe. They are the basis of my life.
I think that those who come to the lesson physically or who watch them virtually feel that and advance from one day to the next.
They receive a portion of spiritual knowledge each day, feelings, and a new perspective, etc. What is more, it is not just an event or a phenomenon, but real internal renewal, it is actual work.
From KabTV’s “Fundamentals of Kabbalah” 12/2/18
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