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The Unique Characteristic Of The Light

Dr. Michael LaitmanAll of us are parts of a single desire, a Kli. There are no previous properties in this desire except for a small spark, an implicit memory of our previous state called a Reshimo that is within our lowest, beastly desires.

Thanks to this spark, I can rise to the next level in which a Reshimo is discovered on an even higher level, and so on.

A Reshimo is the impression of the next spiritual state, which is completely broken. In other words, I have drives toward something higher, yet they are directed so that I will derive pleasure from this situation, I will conquer it. Even though this is a movement towards something higher, the movement is egoistic. This means that on the one hand, my Reshimo yearns for the higher state, yet on the other hand, it is egoistic. What can be done?

If the main thing for me is to abstain from the ego, I must close the Reshimo and not advance anywhere. After all, the moment I yearn for something further ahead and realize it, I begin to yearn for an even greater egoistic activity. After all, on every level the more that I advance, I am dealing with greater ego.

Why doesn’t this stop me? It is because it is not me who corrects my ego; it is the work of the Light. It is up to me to place myself only under its influence. And the more that I yearn for spirituality with even more envy, force, and perseverance, even if this is egoistic, at the same time, if I place myself under the influence of the Light, this is what is needed.

Accordingly, advancement towards a spiritual state is composed of two opposing components. On the one hand, even greater egoistic desires are revealed in me, but on the other hand, I put them under the Light that illuminates them. In this way I am seemingly found in two opposing states. Qualitatively, I am opposed to the Light more and more. Yet simultaneously I summon it upon myself through greater effort.

The contrast in all aspects between the quantitative and qualitative relationship confuses us. However, this is done intentionally so that we will accept the conditions of the next level and maintain them by playing with this level.

Baal HaSulam writes in Shamati 12: The essence of one’s work should be how to come to feel taste in bestowing contentment to one’s Maker.

Where in me is this? What kind of a taste can I feel in bestowal? Is it egoistic or altruistic? I don’t even know. How can I influence the Creator and what do I get from this? Since all that one does for oneself distances him from the Creator due to the disparity of form, do I get some kind of result out of this situation? After all, I also yearn for the Creator. Even though I can repeat a thousand times that I am doing this in order to bestow, these will just be words.

However, if one performs an act to benefit the Creator, even the smallest act, it (the deed) is still considered a Mitzva (commandment, precept), meaning a correction of oneself.

Hence, one’s primary exertion should be to acquire a force that feels taste in bestowing, which is through lessening the force that feels taste in self-reception. In that state, one slowly acquires the taste in bestowing. Meaning that we must reach a state in which when we give something, we enjoy.

All of our group work is said to gradually bring us to this. In the beginning, we advance under the influence of a broken desire, meaning with the help of signs of respect, praise, appreciation, and knowledge. When we try to be nice to each other and we enjoy this, it is because then we look great and respectable in the eyes of society and in our own eyes.

But if we continue to play with this, we acquire completely different characteristics, since depending upon our actions (our intentions are certainly broken), the Light that Reforms will shine on us and we will begin to change under its influence.

This is exactly what should always be our basis: How can we act such that at every moment, we are under the greatest influence of the Upper Light? This is what must determine our deeds, thoughts, and intentions at all time: how to act in the best way inside and out so that the Light will radiate on us as much as possible.

We must be concerned about this at all times, even though this concern could also be incorrect. After all, what seems to me to be correct today will turn out to be wrong tomorrow since all of our desires and flirtation with the Upper Light are egoistic and opposed to the characteristic of the Light. Yet this is not taken into account.

We are found in a state that is absolutely opposed to the Ohr Pnimi (Inner Light) which later comes to us. However, we are found in full accommodation with the Ohr Makif (Surrounding Light).

Obviously I am an egoist and am constantly trying  to put some kind of characteristic under the influence of the Light to correct it for my own benefit. Even though my corrections are egoistically directed towards myself, the Ohr Makif  doesn’t look at this and even shines on me according to my egoistic efforts and corrects my ego.

This is a tremendous characteristic of the Upper Light! After all, when it left the shattered Kli, it underwent this change itself. It doesn’t take into account the present state of the Kli, rather it looks towards whatever the next state can bring.

So the main thing for us is to try as a little child would and the Light will correct everything. The more that we act according to the Upper Light, the greater are the corrections that we get from it. This is precisely the transition from Lo Lishma (not for her name) to Lishma (for her name), from for myself to for the sake of the Creator.

Hence, one’s primary exertion should be to acquire a force that feels taste in bestowing.

It is difficult for us to speak about this now, since in the meantime, we have an egoistic taste of bestowal, meaning we are beginning to enjoy it. For me, there must be some kind of indication, sensation, and internal standard. I must give more to enjoy more, and if I give less, I enjoy less. I must measure everything, otherwise I will not be able to feel my actions and I will be under some kind of anesthesia in which I do something but don’t feel it.

How can I bestow and feel pleasure at the same time? Because then everyone would agree to bestow. Whatever difference there is between reception and bestowal, the main thing is that I will have enjoyment at the time that I act. In the meantime, we don’t understand this. At the present time we only act on one plane. No matter what we do, we are only receiving.

Gradually the Ohr Makif carries out a change in us such that we truly begin to bestow. We come out of ourselves into an empty void that we don’t feel, and yet together with this, we enjoy it.

Why all of a sudden do we feel that we are giving to an empty void? This is because in the transition from work for my sake to work for the sake of others, I don’t feel the other person. The idea is that now I feel him within myself and build a relationship with him according to his distance or closeness. To the degree that he is close to me, I want to give to him egoistically, or otherwise I don’t feel him. I am not ready to carry out even a single action for his sake.

When a spiritual revolution takes place in a person, he first feels the others as insignificant. In other words, his previous feelings and actions disappear and others begin to appear. This is similar to birth, when the body of the newborn begins to operate autonomously and takes upon itself to do everything that the body of the mother previously did for it.

A similar revolution happens to us. We receive an understanding of spiritual work, the possibility of giving outside of myself. This is something that is really unbelievable! And everything is thanks to the Ohr Makif, which at the time of the shattering went out of the Kli and is found to be surrounding it, meaning surrounding us. In this manner, it can bestow to us.
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From the Sochi Convention 6.10/14, Lesson #2

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We Must Not Miss The Opportunity

Dr. Michael LaitmanBaal HaSulam,”The Nation”: It is clear, save for relying on miracles. That our existence as individuals or as a nation is hanging between life and death. And the salvation is, if we can find the required ploy, that great scheme who’s way is only to be found near danger, and which can tilt the scale to our favor—to give us a safe haven here for all the Diaspora of our brothers, which everyone says is, at present, the only place of salvage.

Then, the road of life will be open to us, to somehow continue our existence despite the difficulties. And if we miss the opportunity and do not rise as one, with the great efforts required at a time of danger, to guarantee our remaining in the land, then the facts before us are greatly threatening for us, since matters are evolving favorably for our enemies, who are asking to destroy us from the face of the Earth.

This was written at the beginning of WWII when people had not yet seen the real danger and the Holocaust towards which they were being led.

But Baal HaSulam says that although we had reached such a terrible state that the destructor was given permission to destroy us, we can still change the ratio between the forces of good and evil if we wish to improve our situation. It is all in our hands.

Although time operates against us, we can actually succeed during this time and bring about great and rapid changes.

Instead of waiting for afflictions, troubles, and  dangers, which means for the negative effects to push us forward, we need to advance by ourselves and turn the path of our natural evolution, in its time, to the path of, I shall hasten it. Then we will be able to advance without any blows at all. It all depends on whether we wake up as a result of the blows or whether we wake up as a result of our work.

Awakening by the blows isn’t very useful since they only change and spur us on. We need to change a great deal in order to recover and advance after such blows. So wouldn’t it be better if we advanced along a smooth path? Then it would really be our awakening to the goal of creation and to a rapid escape from the blows.
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From the 5th part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 6/19/14, Writings of Baal HaSulam

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A Small Switch For A Great Light

Dr. Michael LaitmanQuestion: How do we overcome fear in dissemination and fear of lack of success? How do we strengthen and give each other support on the way?

Answer: Truly, when we go out to the streets, organize various events, and circles in homes, we encounter very tired people who are not ready to listen to us and are unwilling to cooperate. In fact, they are very tired and exhausted from life. Therefore we are compelled to overcome many obstacles on our way toward them.

But the problem is that we look at the world, we think of how we can correct such a large number of people—seven billion human beings! What can a small handful of our people do with these billions in China, India, and South America? But we don’t understand that we don’t need to correct all of this. Through a small switch or faucet, we open the passage for the Upper Light and it makes all the corrections. We either block or open the passage for the Light. It isn’t necessary to be afraid of all the rest of the work because the Light will do it. He created darkness and He will also make the Light.

A one-year-old child could flip a small switch with his little finger and suddenly the whole world would be filled with light. Everything depends on how much force we activate. If we can activate the Upper Light, what it does is its business.

So, I am not afraid by the great amount of work that is expected from me. This is not my work, rather the work of the Creator. I am His partner in this work and my goal is to make it possible for the Creator to act. I activate Him like a child who takes the hand of an adult and shows him what he wants the adult to do. That is what children generally do when they don’t succeed in doing something by themselves.

But we are concerned about how to correct the entire world, all the nations of the world, all of their mind and feelings, while they are not ready and don’t want to listen to us. But we don’t need to do this. If you do your job, you will see that everything will work out on its own.

Baal HaSulam doesn’t say to us to turn to our haters and bribe them. It is possible to think that if we do more good things for them they will treat us better. Are you kidding? This really is not correct.

We accept terrorists into our hospitals and take care of them. Do you think that they will ever admire us thanks to this? On the contrary, they will treat us even worse than before. It is because we are doing this instead of doing what we really must do. This is absolutely false.

It is up to us to show that we are not doing anything for them physically, but only spiritually. The world doesn’t need our Nobel Prizes, medicine, and expertise in agriculture. They will never appreciate us for that. Subconsciously the world demands only correction from us and if we don’t carry out that correction, the world blames us for all of its problems.

There is no point in justifying yourself because you have brought everything good to them. You are to blame for not doing what is demanded of you. The Creator makes demands on Israel through the nations of the world. The Creator hardens the heart of Pharaoh and through him, tells you what to do.
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From the 5th part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 6/19/14, Writings of Baal HaSulam

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Dr. Michael LaitmanOur future form of development is how to connect the whole of nature in the integral form. Inanimate objects, plants, and animals are in deep natural connection between them. And humans, because of their selfishness, have risen above the animal level.

It is the ego, the desire to enjoy, that gives us a sense of the passing of all kinds and sorts of creatures that have appeared before us here to the edge of the universe, and all the details of reality on our planet.

We need to use this sense of others in order to come to correct relationships and to return to the system of one, where we all are connected to each other in mutual dependence. Our generation is developing towards this goal, in that one finds himself locked within a closed system and is completely and mutually dependent.

Life and natural development demand from us to complete these connections between us. The inanimate, vegetative, and animate natures are closed naturally within one network, all of ecology, all of nature. And it is as if man is the exception, the irregularity, in that he tries to act in such a way that there are no limits for him and he doesn’t need to be included in that general integral system where everything is connected.

Man needs to see the globalization of nature and examine his desire to receive that rejects all these laws.

Today it turns out that I am dependent on the whole world from the viewpoint of technology, industry, supply, oil, gas, air, and just about anything that you can point to. Consequently, if I want to attain a life that is peaceful and good and to enjoy each moment, then I need make good connections with all the surroundings.

Question: Isn’t that bad if you want to find pleasure in each moment?

Answer: It is not the pleasure itself that is bad but how I use it for that one short moment. Now it is possible to grasp it, so I grab it. It’s possible to steal, I steal, to cheat, I cheat. It’s possible not to think of anyone else, besides myself. So that’s how I think. I take advantage of my ego in a very limited way in my relations to others, which eventually comes back to me since the world is round.

We are not able to do good for ourselves if we don’t do good for others, because we are within an integral system, analog, where everyone is dependent on everyone. You need to understand that in the meantime, in a simple egoistic way, when we do good to others, we do good for ourselves.

When I sign an agreement with everyone regarding mutual friendship and even love, by that I promise myself pleasure from that moment until the end of life. If I am included in others and they are included in me and we become one desire, one thought, in one mutual act, in which everyone is dependent on everyone, then the concept of time disappears.
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From KabTV’s “A New Life” 4/17/14

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Connecting With Others For Correction Of The World

Dr. Michael LaitmanQuestion: With whom can our movement work in partnership and under what conditions?

Answer: We are ready to connect with everyone who wants connection for the sake of correction of the world. Suppose that tomorrow Abu Mazen were to come and offer to work in partnership for the correction of the world. We would shake hands and begin to work together. The moment that some egoistic calculations are inserted into this covenant, we would immediately stop this shared activity.

The absence of egoistic considerations and a yearning to correct the world is the necessary condition. For correction it is necessary to attract the Light that reforms, because only this can help. If he is ready for this, then I am ready to unite with him. This is even though, in the meantime, it seems he is not ready.

We must take into account that it is possible to take a bit of the whole wide spectrum of different factions, political forces, nations, and governments for a short time with the goal of moving forward. This is because each one has some unique problem, and so they can unite with us and support us.

Last year we found ourselves in a dramatic situation regarding the kidnapping of three youths. The people felt terrible pressure and tension because we wanted to find and return the boys. So, with this event, we had the possibility of working with many organizations in Israel to connect the people.

In any case, it is clear to everyone that connection makes us stronger. We get more if we connect through prayer, a shared desire and action. So people went out to marches and gatherings.Thousands of people went out to the streets with placards demanding the release of the hostages. That is how it was all over the world.

Why did the desire to gather appear within them all of a sudden? Subconsciously, they felt that there was some kind of corrective force in this, some kind of new spirit that would appear in the people, along with the concept of a new state.

Even animals instinctively converge during a moment of danger. Sheep gather together into one flock and huddle together when they are concerned about an attack by wolves. If a forest fire breaks out, all of the animals flee from it together without fear of each other. This is because the general crisis connects them, and not one looks at the other in order to devour him. They all flee, meaning that they gather together in one common movement.

This inclination to connect at a time of trouble also exists instinctively among people. We need this spirit of connection, even if it is not an army marching and playing songs that is about to attack as one person. Even though we are not going out to attack, in spite of it, we feel that in this manner we are stabilizing a force through which we can correct ta situation.

So I think that we need to share this inclination that is felt among the people and unite together with them in actions such as these. In addition to this, we must organize discussion circles in parks, courtyards, and in homes.

The people who are now found in such a unique situation are ready to participate in discussions like these. It is necessary to discuss why this happened to us and how we can guarantee that this will never happen again, but only for the purpose of advancing towards the betterment of a situation and good relationships with others.
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From the 4th part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 6/19/14, Writings of Baal HaSulam

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Getting Rid Of Uncorrected Desires

Dr. Michael LaitmanThe Torah, “Leviticus,”10:4 to 10:5: And Moses summoned Mishael and Elzaphan, the sons of Aaron’s uncle Uzziel, and said to them, “Draw near; carry your kinsmen from within the Sanctuary, to the outside of the camp. So they approached and carried them with their tunics to the outside of the camp, as Moses had spoken.

If I am on a certain level, I cannot rise to the next level or descend (I cannot perform a spiritual ascent or descent) before I perform certain actions.

Nadav and Avihu found themselves in the Holy of Holies on the level of the adhesion of the soul with the Creator, on the level of bestowal (Holiness and Holy symbolize the attribute of bestowal). In order to ascend to that level, they had to use their big ego, sanctify it, and transform it from reception to bestowal. When they found themselves in the Holy of Holies and tried to perform this action, they did not manage to do it. Therefore, instead of the fire of Holiness (the revelation of the Light of Hochma, in order to bestow), the opposite happened.

Therefore, the two vessels, the two attributes (Nadav and Avihu) fell, which means that they remained on the same level, the level of the dead. In every desire there are levels of the still, vegetative, animate, and human. In that case, the attributes fell from the human level to the level of the still nature so that they should be corrected.

What is the meaning of “carry your kinsmen from within the Sanctuary, to the outside of the camp?”  A camp refers to the gradual unity of the souls. The two attributes Nadav and Avihu fell to such a level on which they were not connected to anything and are therefore called dead. They must be corrected anew from their state. Therefore, they are taken out of there.

But this isn’t the first example of certain attributes that are removed from a certain level. For example, the great priest who died was taken out of the Holy of Holies on Yom Kippur, when a rope was tied to his foot in advance, since it was certain that his thoughts wouldn’t be pure. But he couldn’t restrain himself since he wanted to reveal the Creator so much and kept on with it.

He used to enter the Holy of Holies on Yom Kippur, which means that he ascended to such a high level that his body had to be taken out of there with a rope tied to his foot, while Nadav and Avihu were taken out by iron rods.

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From KabTV’s “Secrets of the Eternal Book” 1/22/14

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Dr. Michael LaitmanQuestion: In what way is the revelation of the Creator at the time of the giving of the Torah greater than what happens at the time of the exodus from Egypt and the splitting of the Red Sea?

Answer: The revelation of the Creator at the time of the Exodus and the splitting of the Red Sea were simply actions carried out by the Creator. And the giving of the Torah was a transmission of the method and the power of what is higher to people so that they could use it correctly. And so it is such an important revelation.

In this manner people were given the possibility, the opportunity and ability, that through their effort, they could carry out the actions required to reach adhesion. Other than this, nothing is required from us. All the rest of the forms of help, revelations and concealments, exiles and redemptions, all come from Above like angels from the Creator, and are the forces that operate in creation.

But the giving of the Torah means that the power to work on our own was given into our hands. There has been no greater event than this because it refers to me as a person who can carry something out independently and personally. The opportunity was given to me to resemble the Creator, and it is not just that something good was done for me by allowing me to pass through the Red Sea or taking me out of Egypt.

Question: In what way was the Kli that was expected for the giving of the Torah different from the Kli for the exodus from Egypt?

Answer: This was a completely different Kli. The Kli for the exodus from Egypt is the desire to be detached from my egoistic nature, my evil inclination. I simply want all of my evil to leave me and not hold me in slavery. I want to take it off, tear it out of my heart and mind. It will remain somewhere behind me, in my AHP, but I want to be rid of it, “To be a free people in our land,” willingly.

But this is not enough. So I got rid of it and what else?

At the time of the giving of the Torah, a higher Power was given to me. I seemingly hold in my hands the power of the Creator and can remove my evil and bring it up again in myself when I understand that I need it so that I can correct it every time and ascend in this way.

In my hands is found the power of good, the power of correction. Formerly, I only needed to ask, as it is said in Exodus 2:23: …and the children of Israel sighed by reason of the bondage, and they cried, and their cry came up unto God. This was a cry from powerlessness: “Save us, help us, do this and that.” And at the time of the giving of the Torah, even though I depend upon Him, we become partners.
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From the preparation to the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 6/03/14

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Nachshon Is A Property Of Full Bestowal

laitman_232_09Question: What property does Nachshon ben Amminadab, who was the first to jump into the Red Sea, symbolize in a man?

Answer: The Gematria (numerical value) named Nachshon ben Amminadab indicates the height of his spiritual condition is a property of a clean Bina.

It gives him the opportunity to stand up against a wall of water. On one hand, water is this soft property, which is the basis of life, and on the other hand, it is a harsh property as manifested as Gevurot, the force of the court.

The harsh and soft forces, lurking in the water, can be moved only by rising above egoism. Nachshon is able to do this because before a man breaks away from egoism, everything parts as he completely adheres to the Creator.

There is no empty space in the world: either reception, egoism, or bestowal, the property of the Creator. Once raised above the ego, you do not enter a vacuum but the property of the Creator, as Noah did when he entered the ark. So it is here, you enter the property of bestowal, as one may enter a cocoon, and there you exist in it. This is the effect of Nachshon. The sea harms someone, as in the story of the flood, and someone else gets to be saved.

Thus the actions of Noah and Nachshon are the same actions that occur at different levels of egoism and return to square one in the four stages of development. This takes place at each stage. This is the spiritual advancement.
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From KabTV’s “Secrets of the Eternal Book” 4/30/14

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Property Which Parted The Sea

laitman_238_02The Midrash “BeShalach”: Although the sea has not yet parted, the sons of Israel continued to move deeper towards the mighty waves. Water has already reached them up to the neck.

Moses stretched out his hand toward rolling waves and commanded the sea, “In the name of the Creator, make way!” But the sea did not obey.

The sea did not want to change its borders, which were established during the six days of the Creation. The Creator commanded Moses to raise his staff and to threaten the sea, in the same way as the host raises his stick at the rebellious servant. However, the waves did not retreat, and continued to heave.

Then the Shechina (the phenomenon of the Creator) appeared before the sea and it parted. “Why now, the sea, are you gone?” Moshe asked the sea. The reply came,  “I retreat just for the King of the World Himself!”

Even in distant countries the roar of the sea being ruptured was heard. At this point, not only the Yam Suf (the Final Sea) parted, but the water of lakes and wells in all countries have parted, even the water in jugs has parted!

Thus a miracle appeared in the whole world! Water around the world returned to its natural state only after the Yam Suf water (the Final Sea water) took its usual position.

The movement of people takes place in the general property of Bina, and all parts of Bina, no matter where they may be, have imbedded Bina’s properties in the properties of Malchut. And if the people reach bestowal, then Bina starts to work at all levels just like in a chain reaction. Therefore, it is said, “the waters of lakes and wells were parted in all countries, and even the water in a pitcher has parted.”

Question: Why didn’t the sea obey the command of Moses?

Answer: In order to exit from egoism, it can be accomplished only by the help of the upper Light under the influence of GAR de Bina and the huge Light Hochma, i.e., properties that are called “the Creator.”

Every effort must be taken in order to do this, but it turned out that no one but Nachshon possessed such an opportunity: neither Moses nor Aaron knew, even the priests did not know anything about the property of “Nachshon.”

Usually, a person has no properties that would ever come forward, like a group of athletes that run to the finish, where a leader breaks out ahead. But this group has to come together to the finish line, and if they do not run together, then neither the first nor the last person reaches the finish line.

The main thing is for the whole group to come together to the sacred goal. The leading person of the group has to set the tone since one runs in front, but each time the leader changes. With this, none of the characteristic properties of any person get lost, but rather they must occur at least for a moment while a person is being led and while leading the whole humanity.

Let us say all of humanity is a circle. I am in this circle with my inherent property. While I am in this property I should be once in front of everyone and once behind everyone. Every person does the same. The real property of each person is necessarily manifested twice as leading the whole of humanity and as being led by all mankind.

Question: A concept of “leading mankind” is clear, but why should it be guided by all of mankind?

Answer: There cannot be one without the other, because only in this way the true property of a person manifests itself. All other properties are mixed together. And one’s private quality should manifest only as Keter and Malchut.
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Don’t Be Afraid Of Fear And Helplessness

Dr. Michael LaitmanQuestion: I had an encounter with people on the street not long ago in which there were many unexpected interferences and I found myself in a position of helplessness and despair. How can I focus directly on our goal and not circle around it?

Answer: This confusion was on purpose in order to bring you to deeper and deeper clarifications. This happens in every state, on every level and to every person. It happens to everyone.

Clarify this point and it will become clearer. Then you will encounter many more such situations and you will always feel helpless. The helplessness stems from the fact that it isn’t in your power to correct anything and that you are not in control of the situation, but this is actually a good thing. What you lack here is to hold on to the host and to be in contact with Him.

There is nothing you can but to continue. Everyone reaches such states and such discernments, and although you describe them nicely, you still have no contact with the upper Light. Even if you had such contact, there would still be disconnections so that you would be able to rise from one level to the next each time you feel helpless at a certain point a along the way.

It is just like King David wrote in the Book of Psalms: “You have hidden your face from me and I was frightened!” This is good since it shakes a person a little and takes the Klipot (shells) from him. When a person is in a state of fear, anxiety, insecurity, and disorientation, it is actually a good thing. We should see where it all comes from and how the Creator summons you to adhere to Him.
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From the preparation to the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 6/03/14

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