Answer: The understanding arrives as a result of clarifying my Kelim (vessels, desires). And the Light is what purifies, corrects, and fills my Kli, not you yourself. Our work is to be inspired to pull this Light upon us. Except for that there is nothing else, and this is the entire Torah, “The Reforming Light.”
You don’t know, don’t understand, and don’t feel the spiritual world. Simply some kind of unknown longing leads you, but you really don’t know exactly what it leads to. This is the correct and good state that even exists on higher spiritual levels.
We only need to imagine the optimal conditions: In what state, what situation, in what way will I enter into the maximum influence of the Light? It is as if I go on the roof in order to sunbathe a little. After all I wouldn’t sit in the shade, but I would put the chair directly in the sun and turn towards it, in order to place myself constantly under its rays. I constantly adjust myself to catch the maximum rays of the sun.
Similarly, we need to clarify the conditions under which we will be able to pull the maximum Light that Reforms. And we need not just to place ourselves under its influence, but to pull it to ourselves. After all, here everything depends on how strongly I want the Light to come and affect me.
And one needs to think about this all day: How can I hold myself in the correct thought and desire; what needs to control my heart and mind in order to invite the influence of the Light? Under what conditions does the Light influence me in the greatest way? How should I turn my heart and mind in order to position myself under the influence of the Light?
As a result of that, all the rest will come. Even without reading the letters of Baal HaSulam, you discover what is written there. The matter is not in learning a few pages of text and acquiring knowledge. But we need to read these texts because during the time of studies we direct ourselves to greater influence of the Light. For example, the reading of Kabbalistic texts is one of the conditions of the correct intention towards the Light. But we don’t read them just for understanding, but with the thought to pull towards us the influence of the Light. This is the whole issue. Thus, it is said, “Not the wise one learns.”
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 1/29/13, Writings of Baal HaSulam