Darkness is a sign of the abundance of the light of Hochma and all that is missing is the light of Hassadim in order for the darkness to shine as the light. Darkness is the manifestation of the Creator, but I need to add the light of Hassadim to this darkness; to that extent, I will reveal the Creator in order to bring Him contentment. The more light of Hassadim, the greater the revelations. The Creator fills the whole world, but no one can feel Him except those who can add the light of mercy, as is written: “in Your light we will see light.”
In a state of hardship, one must believe that there is none else besides the Creator and rejoice at the Creator’s revelation of any evil, because that is a sign that something good will be revealed soon. If I receive a blow, it means that I am ready for the revelation of the next degree.
The Creator reveals his attitude toward me with more clarity, but I perceive it as evil and I suffer, although in reality it is all good. In the most acute, critical states, we have the most opportunity to say that it all comes from the Creator for our own good.2
Why do we come to this world if our purpose is to leave it? We fall into the kingdom of the egoistic desire to enjoy, to the lowest level of reality, as primitive animals in order to rise from it. We are even worse than animals because we agree with our instinctive, automatic responses. We are slaves to egoism, while an animal does not feel enslaved. Even house pets do not feel themselves enslaved when they lose their freedom, but love their master who feeds them and are ready to work for him.
But the Creator does not allow us to live in such a way with our egoism. Each consecutive generation feels more and more unhappy. Thus, the Creator is pulling us out of the animate degree and raising us to the human level. We have to train ourselves to resemble the Master.
This is a special work on the part of creation. Therefore, the Creator constantly awakens in us a feeling that we are in exile, in slavery, in insignificance, without knowledge and sensation of our master, like an animal that will not allow itself to be tamed. It will be this way until we reveal the Master and realize that He is the most sublime; then we will cleave to Him consciously, not out of animalistic habit, but by attaining His greatness and role in creation and His effort to raise us to His level so that we do not only fulfill his desire like an animal tied to the owner, but receive the same qualities.3
Life is a feeling of adherence to the Creator, harmony with the upper force, movement in unison, the absence of the perception of leader and follower but only together. There, at the highest point, where the end of action is united with the initial thought, the Creator and the creation achieve such an adhesion that there is no first or last, only all together.4
We have to come back to adherence with the Creator like an embryo in the mother’s womb, connected to her in all its essence. But now I am no longer an infant but a grown man, burdened with the experience of various states and knowledge. Along with all this burden, I annul myself before the upper one like an embryo. I do not annul my thoughts or desires, but I try to be devoted like an embryo to its mother. Everything always comes back to the first point of conception—the point of complete adhesion between the creation and the Creator. No matter how huge, strong, or smart I have become, I reduce myself to a single point within the Creator.5
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 4/23/19, Writings of Rabash, Vol. 1, Article 20, “He who Hardens His Heart”
1 Minute 55:00
2 Minute 57:15
3 Minute 1:02:21
4 Minute 1:06:50