Answer: Let’s try this practice together.
Try and see whether you can develop an inner feeling that you are lacking this connection.
Best of all is to constantly think: “I would very much like to do good to Him.” Such inner yearning will quickly evoke certain sensations within you, and then you will be able to say: “Indeed, there is some point of a special attitude toward the Creator in me. Based on that, I can develop further.”
I repeat and keep thinking: “I want to have a constant urge to do good to the Creator. But I do not want the Creator to know about it. I just want to do it myself.” That is all.
From the Kabbalah Lesson in Russian 12/23/18