Question: Suppose I am bestowing for the sake of the Creator, but later I feel exhausted. Since the stage of bestowal is called the phase of Bina, does it mean that I am now in this phase?
Answer: No! If you were really bestowing, you would not feel emptiness, but rather fulfillment.
To the extent that you open your valve and begin to vent egoism from yourself, which means bestowing, you leave an empty space within you that is immediately filled with the upper light.
You are like a balloon filled with egoism. When the valve opens, egoism begins to come out slowly and the upper light comes to take its place: Nefesh, Ruach, and Neshama depending on the level of intensity. But you cannot feel exhausted. On the contrary, you feel how much you acquired, received, and were filled with.
From the Daily Kabbalah lesson in Russian, 11/25/18
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