Shamati #1, “There is None Else Beside Him”: And only if that person has a true desire will he receive help from Above. And he is constantly shown how he is at fault in his present state. Namely, he is sent thoughts and views, which are against the work.
All of these thoughts are the result of the Reshimot that appear, emerge from within a person and demand realization. Once there existed a single desire, but it was crushed into many desires, fragments.
This single desire was only a small Kli of bestowal that was called Adam HaRishon (First Man), who was circumcised, born without an ego, like an angel. First there was only a small desire for bestowal in him. But later he attached to himself the desire to receive, the AHP, by tasting from the tree of knowledge. From this, a powerful desire was added to him that crushed the desire to bestow into small parts.
In this manner, instead of one desire to bestow, many desires to bestow were created. The question is asked: “How could the desire to bestow be crushed into many pieces?” After all, this is contrary to nature of bestowal, which always draws us to connect together, like several drops of water that immediately connect into one drop.
But the desire to receive held the small desire to bestow captive and held it within itself in servitude, like the people of Israel in Egypt. So there is a desire to bestow inside, but it is entirely wrapped within an intention for the sake of reception. It follows that even within the desire to bestow, a person is forced to work in order to receive.
This is that the desire to bestow is found under the control of Pharaoh. But even though in the meantime this state is the opposite of the Creator, a new tendency is discovered within it, a powerful new Kli. For the desire to bestow that are found in the captivity of the desire to receive grew on account of the AHP, the heart of stone, which connected the Kelim of the people of Israel. And so at the time of the correction, there was a great improvement. As it is written, the people of Israel left Egypt with great wealth. They took everything that was possible to take from Pharaoh. And only what was impossible to correct remained in Egypt.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 10/29/14, Shamati #1