Answer: Internally I play on my own, and it doesn’t matter whether there are people around me or not. The main thing is that in the meantime I am divided into internal and external parts and from my current state I want to reach the other one, by organizing my attributes, the internal hierarchy of the forces—this is why I play.
If I play in annulling and humbling myself, then this game gradually becomes reality. All our worlds and our state are mechanical and except for the mechanical drawing of the Light that Reforms, we have no other freewill.
If I understand a bit what the next level should be and where I am now and I play the upper level in humility, by trying different means to adhere and to connect with the friends, it is OK that I have no feeling for it, no mind and no knowhow. Our world is mechanical, corporeal, and physical, and if I use all the means I was given, then I draw the Light that Reforms upon myself.
The Surrounding Light operates on me. On the upper levels we begin to feel the influence of the Surrounding Light that becomes part of our state because our vessel is divided into an internal and external part in which we operate. But in our current state it happens in concealment.
A reversal of my attributes must take place. Even if I deal with something with the opposite intention, but do everything that I can, it is enough to draw the Light upon me, and so this Light is called the Surrounding Light.
From the 1st part to the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 10/15/12, Writings of Rabash