Question: What can I give the Creator?
Answer: You felt a certain unpleasantness by receiving in the world of Ein Sof (Infinity) and you stopped and said to yourself that you don’t want to receive anymore. In the world of the shattering, the world of Nekudim, you were shattered since you couldn’t receive in order to bestow. We know from TES that the upper Partzufim made an intentional mistake in the calculations. But why were you shattered? It is because you discovered a love that you couldn’t receive in order to bestow, that you could not return!
The filling itself is not important, not the five servings that the host serves you. The five servings already appear in the world of Adam Kadmon, and it’s clear to you whether you can receive them or not. Everything is clear with regard to the servings, but now you discover that the host has a special attitude towards you, that He loves you! And you cannot stand this attitude and it shatters you.
Love shatters in the most severe manner, since you have nothing to return, there is nothing you can do. So a person that is dedicated to someone, like a wife to her husband, totally buys him. If she shows him that she is ready to do everything for him, he cannot reject her, it is unconditional love.
It’s impossible to resist such love that is revealed in the shattering of the vessels; the created being cannot pay for it, he has nothing to complete it by. So as a result of the shattering, we finally begin to search and we find out what we can give in return to the love of the upper.
As a result we understand what the “two great Lights” are: Malchut and Zeir Anpin, the created being and the Creator that become one: “I am for my beloved and my beloved is for me.”
Question: Can’t I pay for this love just by my dedication, appreciation, admiration, and the recognition of His greatness?
Answer: No, because you have no other parameter but your desire, you cannot measure love and you don’t know what love is. You know what love is only by your own vessel.
You think that expressing your love towards the Creator is repaying Him several kilograms of desire with a Masach (screen), but love is typical only of the Creator. If you measure and calculate this, then thanks to the connection between you, the Light of His love fills the two of you. This means that “you are covered by one blanket.” The Light of love comes from the Creator and wraps the two of you since you both reach adhesion; since mutual love is called adhesion, you have the common vessels that are filled by the common Light thanks to the common Masach.
From the 3rd part of Daily Kabbalah Lesson 5/17/13, Talmud Eser Sefirot