Everything takes place within the desire for pleasure, which was created by the Creator. As it develops, this desire undergoes certain changes. At first we approve of and don’t conflict with it. In fact, any sort of conflict is downright impossible, since one never distances himself from this desire but always acts at its command. He is not yet aware that the desire really isn’t his and that it rules over him. He is yet to distinguish these two aspects within himself as separate: desire and man.
But then inside of him awakens the Creator’s point directed at bestowal and one begins to feel his desire as alien to him. He begins to distinguish between 1. Desire, and 2. Me (point in the heart).
One’s efforts to change his desires further distance himself from them, and one begins to feel like their slave. Regardless of whether they bring pleasure or pain, one begins to understand that these desires are being sent to him. One’s reality appears to comprise three components: 1. The Creator, 2. The desires He sends, 3. Me.
The wisdom of Kabbalah explains the matter of free will as how one can use the influence of the group and the Upper Light (Ohr Makif) to exalt the importance of the goal above the interests of the body and corporeal life, and how to change one’s desires so as to attain the goal.
That is how one develops his equivalence to the Creator (bestowal).
From the Daily Lesson of 10.20.09