Shamati, 35, “Concerning the Vitality of Kedusha”: …there is a rule that from Above they give giving, and take, they do not take (all that is given from Above is not received in return, but stays below). Hence, if one extends something from Above and then blemishes it, it remains below, but not with man. Instead, it falls to the sea of the Sitra Achra.
I drew the light and cannot hold on to it. In the first instant, I reached equivalence of form with the light and it revealed itself in my desire. But in the very next moment, the new uncorrected informational record (Reshimo) was revealed in me, which needs to be adapted again for the new light. However, I did not do it and therefore, the previous light departs from within me. In fact, the light remains, but I stop feeling it because my desire was renewed.
From the illumination I received, I must learn how to continue next time: to prepare desires, the foundation, strength, mutual guarantee, and security in order to draw the light for the sake of bestowal. Each time my participation should increase.1
In every moment that follows, a new Reshimo is revealed that does not fit the previous state. A stronger desire is revealed and greater lights are revealed against it, and I need to bring this desire in equivalence with the light by making a stronger effort. Yet, I did not do that, I was not ready, and therefore, I lose the illumination from the previous state.
Initially, the system is built in such a way that I am never ready to receive the light immediately. After all, my vessel is broken; therefore, the broken desire is revealed, and the light against it, which I obviously cannot receive at that moment. It is written about it, “There is no righteous in the land that does good and hasn’t sinned.” After each transgression the correction is revealed, the commandment, because “one does not perform a Mitzva unless he has failed in it.”
First, there is always revelation of shattering, so we go: descent and ascent. Without the fall, the ascent is impossible, the correct use of the will to receive, because desire reveals the sensation of the fall.2
The desire becomes suitable for work only once it receives impressions from the qualities of the light. This happened during the shattering. The shattering happens because the light enters the desires; the boundary between the will to receive and the will to bestow is broken and these desires mix with each other.
Inside the created being the qualities of the light and qualities of the vessel mix with each other. Thus, as a result of the shattering, the created being acquires qualities of the Creator, although it feels corrupted, shattered. However, this unpleasant sensation comes precisely from the feeling of its oppositeness to the Creator, that is, because the Creator is in the created being and is revealed in it.
This is their meeting, contact, and revelation. Therefore, only after the shattering and onward is it possible to talk about the real created being standing against the Creator. The created being can ignore the Creator and want to rule by itself: the impure force (Sitra Achra) is our true nature that feels its oppositeness to the Creator.
This is an advanced state because inside the created being there already is the connection with the Creator and recognition of its own oppositeness. The created being knows the Creator and it knows itself, insisting “I shall rule!” From this point onward correction is possible, but not before that. This happened during the destruction of the Second Temple and the subsequent exile; therefore, only now, today, are we ready for the correction, but not earlier.3
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 12/4/19, Writings of Baal HaSulam, Shamati 35, “Concerning the Vitality of Kedusha“
1 Minute 29:35
2 Minute 32:00
3 Minute 41:20