Answer: It is very good that it is hidden because I have to reach a state where it is not important to me at what moment in my life, in my beastly existence, I will be separated from the physical body.
I must reach a state where I will live in the soul not the body, so it doesn’t make any difference to me if I exist in a body or not. If I continue to exist within it, this is only so that in some way I will bestow even more to humanity, to the world.
So, it makes no difference to me at what moment I will be separated from the body. I am simply under the control of the higher management, and that’s it.
From the Kabbalah Lesson in Russian 11/1/15