Question: Should we decide what we want while reading The Zohar, or should we try to find out what we really want?
Answer: A person asks about one thing and thinks about something else and wants another thing. The Light that is focused on the vessels evokes something totally different in him, which is different from his thoughts, from his question, and from his desire.
All that is required of us is only the awakening. If we can awaken ourselves correctly, then everything will work as it should. The right awakening comes down to one thing—have I tried to be with everyone, which means to be in a vessel, in my true desire, now while reading a passage in The Book of Zohar; not in myself, in my desire and only from there to think and to ask, but to be incorporated in my external vessel, not feeling any need for that or any taste in it, and to ask for connection with the friends by rising above my need and my taste? Did I do that or nor? If I did, then my efforts are correct and I begin to receive different positive and negative spiritual results.
But if my efforts were aimed at understanding and at feeling what is in The Book, these are efforts in my egoistic vessel and so accordingly the results I get are in a totally wrong direction. That’s what happens until I evoke enough Light upon myself, since I am still somehow connected to others and this Light somehow guides me in the right direction.
We should understand that our actions here have to be very accurate. On the part of the Light everything is simple: If you are in a vessel upon which it shines, then you are in contact with it and it works with you, and if you aren’t, then it doesn’t. You have to be in front of the attribute of bestowal, which is the Light. You cannot be connected to the attribute of bestowal at all if you stay inside your “self.” To the extent that you exit yourself towards others, you approach the Light.
From the 2nd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 10/11/12, The Book of Zohar