It is said by the sages: “The long road is short, and the short road is long.” The Creator wants us to see ourselves not as the righteous who have nothing to correct, but as sinners and to rise above our defects, over our separation and inability to bestow.
I reveal that I am a sinner and strive to become righteous. The righteous is one who justifies the Creator. Nothing is required of us except this justification, everything else is done from above.
The long or short road, I decide on my ability to justify the Creator. Perhaps I am only at the very beginning of the path, but I adhere myself completely to the Creator. It is not the condition itself that matters to the Creator, but the efforts made by us, as we appreciate the efforts of a baby in a trifling matter and are touched by them more than the great successes of a grown child.
The person himself determines where he is. Maybe he is far from the Creator, but uses this estrangement as an opportunity to show his devotion and closeness to Him. And then the long road becomes short. A short road can be long if a person thinks that he is already close to the Creator. So we judge not by our sensations, but only by our ability to justify the Creator, and then we can already achieve correction.1
From Baal HaSulam’s article, “You Have Made Me in Behind and Before”: “You have made me in behind and before,” meaning the revelation and concealment of the face of the Creator. This is because indeed, “His kingdom rules over all,” and everything will return to its root because there is no place vacant of Him. But the difference is in the present or the future, because one who connects the two worlds discovers His clothing in the present, that everything that is done is a clothing for the revelation of the Shechina [Divinity].
A person for whom the present and future are one and the same feels that he already has the revelation of the Creator; that is, everything that happens is a manifestation of the actions of the upper force.
If I imagine that it is not me acting now, but the Creator acting in me, then the present and the future are connected for me and there is nothing left but this moment. Time does not exist. If the next moment matters to me, then I’m in a flawed condition right now.
The future exists only in order to cancel it and pull it into the present. For this, I must imagine that the Creator rules me at every moment, and for me there is no next moment because I am completely in His power.2
The Creator wants us to find that He controls us all the time, like a horseman with a horse, and leads us toward good. If I reveal a good higher management, then for me the difference between the present and the future disappears, everything ends in the present moment. As soon as I merge with the Creator, time disappears because it does not matter to me what He will do with me, I do not expect anything new.3
It is a mistake to think that in the past I decided something myself and did something wrong, which led to a bad state today. It turns out that I deny the uniqueness of the Creator if I affirm that in the past it was not His government, but I ruled myself.
Everything that occurred up to this point happened according to the will of the highest management, and I am forbidden to regret the past. I have to stick to the present moment.
The horse’s freewill is not to ride against the will of the rider and not even to guess his wishes in advance. The horse’s freedom is to work against its will. This is where it reveals freedom of choice: to be in the power of the Creator all the time and merge with Him. The state cannot be frozen; it changes all the time. And I have to change myself, remaining in constant fusion with the Creator, despite changing conditions.4
From the 2nd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 12/6/19, Writings of Baal HaSulam, “You Have Made Me in Behind and Before”
1 Minute 7:50
2 Minute 18:20
3 Minute 20:48
4 Minute 25:00