Question: We begin to feel darkness as if from within our egoism. Darkness, which in essence is the same as light, is external darkness. Does it differ in any way from the darkness that I begin to feel egoistically?
Answer: Darkness is the feeling of egoism, period. There are no other kinds of darkness. There are only two forces: egoistic and altruistic. The egoistic is felt as darkness in our spiritual development, the altruistic—as light.
Question: What does it mean to annul myself? What should I restrict in spirituality and in corporeality? How is it possible to find balance between these two lines?
Answer: This is a problem that you can learn about only in our courses, only in the lessons in a gradual connection with teachers: how to balance corporeal and spiritual life. You have to work, have a family, and study Kabbalah. How can you bring it all into balance? In order to do so, you have to be under the supervision of mentors.
Question: Can I, through my request to the Creator, influence other people’s perception of the world? Or is the revelation of the Creator to them not my task and I need only concentrate on the prayer for connection?
Answer: Concentrate only on the prayer for connection of your ten, and through it, you can already ask the Creator for greater connection than in the ten. There must first be the ten, otherwise you do not turn to the Creator, but to whatever, simply to the air.
Question: What should I do if today, at the lesson, during the workshops, I do not want to say anything, I have neither thoughts nor words?
Answer: It means that yesterday you were filled so much that nothing fits into you anymore. What can you do? It will pass gradually. Whatever you received today by being present at the lesson will be revealed in you later. It all entered you, but at the moment you cannot work with it.
Question: How can you pray correctly for the ten in the darkness?
Answer: In the darkness, you cannot pray for the ten. You should adhere to it, enter it. This is why you were given the darkness. The ten then begins to correct and elevate you, and everything will work out.
From Lesson 4, World Kabbalah Convention in Moldova 9/7/19, Rejoice in What We Lack/Work in Concealment