Torah, “Numbers,” 22:20 – 22:22: God came to Balaam at night and said to him, “If these men have come to call for you, arise and go with them, but the word I speak to you—that you shall do.” In the morning Balaam arose, saddled his she-donkey and went with the Moabite dignitaries. God’s wrath flared because he was going, and an angel of the Lord stationed himself on the road to thwart him, and he was riding on his she-donkey, and his two servants were with him.
“Hamor” (donkey) is from the word “Homer” (substance), this is the substance of all of nature and the donkey particularly symbolizes the female part called Nukva; these are all the deficiencies, all the desires, and all that is included in our egoistic nature.
Balaam uses his entire ego here and therefore the most strict conditions, the Dinim (judgments), worked against him, for when a person begins to use the ego, he apparently “walks on the razor’s edge.”
“God came to Balaam at night, and said to him: “If these men have come to call for you, arise and go with them, but the word I speak to you—that you shall do.’” (“Numbers,” 22:20), which is to say, the Creator apparently said to Baalam: You will use your donkey, your ego, but you will bless the work of the ego through My blessings. And everything that I say to you, meaning all the altruistic intentions, will be involved in this.
We see it in all cases. How, for example, and Haman: first, he is given the opportunity to participate in the selfish actions to build a gallows, prepare yourself a horse and robes, and then suddenly everything changes!
But Balaam always wanted to receive for himself. We see it in the case of Haman: first he is given the opportunity to participate with egoistic characteristics, building a noose, preparing a horse and the clothes of a king for himself, and after that everything suddenly changes.
That is, when using the ego it seems to a person that he is now going to get something for himself and begin to receive benefit. That is how all of humanity thinks, but actually nobody benefits from this, because according to the program of creation, it is only possible to use egoism to advance towards altruism.
From KabTV’s “Secrets of the Eternal Book” 8/12/15