Question: There was a feeling at the convention that every second a thought, a desire, was renewed and grew, and no moment was wasted. But after that, when we need to add more to that image of the unified man that we have created, instead of multiplying it, conversely, we are losing what we have achieved. What can we do when we go out into the world, when we become confused and cannot preserve the former state because our thoughts are running in other directions?
Answer: Going into the external world, you need to be in even greater tension because it has been created as a means to increase the previously reached degree. And if that does not work—this means that you do not feel yourself within the group.
Imagine that you are a scout sent by your friends to a foreign territory in order to find out the situation there. What will you tell them when you come back? Are you going to be like those scouts who were sent to the land of Israel and upon their return said that we would not be able to cope with the people who inhabit it and we will be defeated by egoism?
This is still called the development by the path of suffering because this takes places in the conditions of descent, alienation. If you feel that you slide lower and gradually come out of holiness, it means that you have already become disconnected from the upper force. In order for you to become included in the environment, you as if lock yourself in a submarine, in order to seek the upper force with which you will achieve mutual bestowal, “I am my beloved’s and my beloved is mine.”
But being torn from this upper, internal force, you also pull yourself from the environment. Everything is connected by a chain: Israel, the Torah (group), the Creator. Since you are separated from the Creator, you also become excluded from Israel because you are no longer aimed “straight to the Creator” (Yashar-El). At the same time, your group turns from the gathering of Kabbalists into a crowd of clowns.
It is a critical point. We cannot keep ourselves in this environment because it lacks the general force of bestowal, the revelation of the Creator. We need to keep it with all our strength as much as possible. Otherwise, we will not have the motivation, the reason, to reach this environment and connect to it more and more strongly.
You need to work on this point, which is still clouded, by focusing your attention on it, and gradually it will begin to become clear. As if it were not visible and then began to emerge from the fog due to various other reasons, events, “from your actions I will know you.”
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 7/18/13, Writings of Rabash