There are two feelings simultaneously getting along together inside of a desire to enjoy: above reason and inside reason. Inside reason, I develop the perception of the vessel, desires, and above reason, the perception of Light.
I join the whole world to this desire and I do not separate this world from the spiritual one. I perceive everything as one whole and I relate it to matter, which is impressed by the Creator. I need to feel it with my matter, so that the whole of the still, vegetative, animate, and human levels, which I now feel, and which will yet be revealed to me in all of the upper world, all of this belongs to me, my vessel, my matter, my Malchut.
While the Light—the Creator’s actions, the upper force, fulfilling, bringing to life, and controlling—remains above the perception of my vessel. However, all of this is also attained inside of me and is not left somewhere high up there in the unknown.
“A judge has no more than what his eyes see.” We only talk about matter and form clothed in matter. Matter is the desire of the whole of humanity (it is not important, whether it understands it yet or not), and of all of the upper worlds as well. While the form clothed in matter is the Light filling the desire or the quality of bestowal clothed in the quality of receiving.
I relate to the quality of bestowal as much higher above reason as possible. I want for it to become manifested in me from the highest possible level of faith “above reason” acting in my matter, which must be clarified as accurately as possible “inside reason.”
However, both of these actions are inside of me and there is nothing else besides this: the matter and the form. Matter is the desire to enjoy, while the form, which it takes on, is the form of bestowal. I relate to the first one inside reason, while I relate to the latter one above reason.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 2/15/12, Writings of Rabash