Baal HaSulam, “Introduction to The Study of the Ten Sefirot,” Item 87: As long as one has not been awarded the complete, clear, and absolute attainment, love is completely beyond one’s ability, since it depends on the understanding of the heart, and no labor or coercion will help here.
Obviously, what you are told and what you think is not enough. Sometimes, a person imagines that he has already attained love and infinity. It happens to everybody. How can we tell such illusions from reality? How can we check whether it is in fact a spiritual revelation?
Revelation means that a person has obtained the property of bestowal. He checks himself and acknowledges his love for the created beings and his group; he sees that he attains the Creator (that is, the property of bestowal “clothed” in him) from within, due to the general interconnection between his friends. Hence, he feels that he rises above his egoism, the receiving desire, by staying in touch with it, but at the same time being outside of it.
At this time, he is comprised of two parts:
- the previous body: egoism, the desire for pleasures;
- the new body: the desire to bestow that includes the power of giving, which eventually becomes his soul. He lives in it and wants to expand it.
Both parts exist as one and cannot live without each other. They can be compared to dumbbells: A person feels that he is torn between its two parts, two spheres, and brings them into balance. At first, step by step, he annuls one of these two parts and enhances the other. As a result, additional power is being given to the left part; it becomes heavier and triggers an adequate enhancement of bestowal. As a result, the magnitude of both parts grows, and a person advances as if stepping in turn on each foot: The desire grows on the left side and bestowal develops on the right side.
From the 4th part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 2/9/2012, “Introduction to TES”