First of all, we have to fulfill a condition that bestowal is more important than reception or that faith should be above reason. After a person accepts this condition, it has to be realized, meaning that he has to reach it in his qualities, in his matter.
And for that reason, there exists a means that is no less important than the goal because without the means it is impossible to reach it. And moreover, I don’t throw away this means as soon as I reach the goal. The means itself becomes the final state I live in, feel, and reach the goal. In other words, the means becomes the essence of the desirable state.
Thereby the search for the means to reach the goal is so important to us. But what could the means be if I’ve already decided that bestowal is my goal? The means is that in this world there are people aspiring towards the same goal as I do! They have the same desire that will support me and let us act together. Connecting to them, I can strengthen my desire and multiply my strength.
I have nowhere else to gain strength. The Light is waiting for me above and is ready to help under the condition that I agree to rise from one degree to another, from the lesser bestowal to the greater one. But how do I want more bestowal, how do I want to rise higher?
It’s absolutely impossible for me because I’m in a specific state and can’t get out of it. I can assume that it possibly would be nice getting out of it, but “possibly” is not a real desire yet. It’s very well known that we can think and say nice words for years without feeling the real need of reaching it.
I don’t suffer from not being able to bestow. I don’t shed tears from not being able to give to the other. I’ve never seen anything like that happen to anyone because we find ourselves living inside a materialistic and egoistic degree. And how do I at this egoistic degree (the whole essence of which is the desire to receive that defines my thoughts, desires, aspirations, and behavior) desire something higher than myself? That’s like a plant that suddenly wishes to become an animal, which is totally unbelievable.
But things are even more complex because the difference between a plant and an animal is just in the size of the desire, but here the desire is opposite. I have to want something that is contrary to me: to want bestowal instead of reception. Thus we are given an environment that can help us acquire the desire toward the next degree. The environment is built in such a way.
Those are not my corporeal friends who are at the same degree as I am. The environment is something that is hidden inside of our unification. If I start acting with respect towards them using this special means called the group, the environment, I will be able to receive a new desire toward the higher degree.
I use various means such as “envy, lust, and ambition,” which, as it is said, “lead a person out of this world,” meaning that they raise one from this degree to the next one. In order to get such an opportunity, I need to “buy a friend.” If I properly relate to friends on the path, I will buy from them an additional desire that I lack in order to rise to the higher degree.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 12/1/2011, Writings of Rabash