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Will Judgment Day Purify Everything?

626Comment: Yom Kippur is the day of atonement, the day of judgment, the day of forgiveness. It has many names. It is the most important day and even secular Jews in Israel celebrate it. On this day, highways are empty and children ride their bikes peacefully. Everything stops.

People scan the year that they have lived, they check, and think it over. They even say that there is such a rule from above that you have to check it because you are being sealed for the next year.

My Response: Yes. Humble yourself and check all your actions over the past year.

Question: What does it mean to check all your deeds over the past year?

Answer: How good and kind you were to others. Because if you have any problems with others, then no judgment will redeem you. So it is said! You have to ask everyone for forgiveness and check all your actions toward connection with others.

Question: One should perceive it directly like this?

Answer: Yes, directly! That’s how it is written and that’s how I take it.

Comment: Meaning, if I hated someone, or I snapped at someone, I did some nasty things to someone…

My Response: I’m letting go.

Question: “I’m letting go” in the sense that I am in some way apologizing to them?

Answer: There are some people to whom I cannot turn and ask for forgiveness. I do it within myself. Ostensibly, I apologize to them, although I know that I cannot approach them, I cannot approach them in any way, but I apologize.

Question: Is this to say, it is required from above?

Answer: Not just from above. This is a very serious psychological action that helps a person evaluate his attitude to the world, to life, and to people.

Question: Does it give some kind of purification to a person?

Answer: Of course. I know that I have to apologize now and come out of this state in such a way that everyone will forgive me.

Question: And if I really don’t want to forgive? If I know he’s a scoundrel?

Answer: It doesn’t matter.

Question: So even to the one who offended me, I apologize to him as well?

Answer: Yes, even if he is such a scoundrel as you say, you still need to apologize as if you are to blame for all this. And how do you know? Maybe it is so.

Comment: You’re talking in such a way now, as if it’s a world holiday. You don’t add the word “Jews” or “Israel” here, as if it applies to every person.

My Response: In general, everyone should have it. This is indicated for the Jewish people, but I believe that everyone should have a day of atonement.

Not necessarily at the same time. On different days or different times of the year, but every nation and every person should experience it as if he really is before the court and is obliged to ask for forgiveness from everyone!

Question: On this day I am judged for my character?

Answer: Yes!

Question: What should I be like?

Answer: I have to be like the Creator.

I should strive to not do evil to anyone and not to hold evil against anyone and I must be ready to do good at any time of day or night. The most important thing is to come to love the Creator through love for people.

Question: So one way or another, the end point is love for the Creator? From the love of creatures to the love of the Creator? Is this the most important formula?

Answer: Yes.

Question: But if a person does not feel the Creator and does not believe in Him?

Answer: It doesn’t matter at all. All people, from the age of maturity onward, who are considered adults (women at 12 years old and men at 13 years old), are obliged in some way to sanctify themselves. Sanctify is from the word “light” and the word “holiness.”

Comment: There are judgment day prayers. What is more effective: a prayer that is written or a prayer that is in the heart when a person sits, thinks, and prays?

My Response: Undoubtedly, the one that is in the heart. What the sages wrote, they wrote. But the way I think and what I would write, as it is said, “Write on your heart,” is much stronger.

Question: What would you wish now, on this day of judgment, toward this complicated world of ours?

Answer: I would wish the world peace.

Starting with a person in himself, with friends, with relatives, and ending with absolutely everyone, the most remote up to the very last person in the world, so that the whole globe is covered with forgiveness and that we would never let our egoism rule over us again. Then everything will be fine!

Question: So I have to come to the conclusion that egoism dominates us?

Answer: Yes, of course. The entire Yom Kippur consists in the trial of egoism.

Question: So I identify the enemy on this day?

Answer: Undoubtedly.

Question: It’s not the neighbor, it’s me. And then my request is to get out?

Answer: Free me from this evil inclination in me.

Question: And this is called the best spent Yom Kippur?

Answer: Yes. When I sit, think about it all, and decide that I don’t want to use it anymore, and I ask the Creator to free me from it.
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From KabTV’s “News with Michael Laitman” 9/29/22

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Yom Kippur: A Request for Correction

236.02In the process of spiritual development, there is a special state called Yom Kippur (from the word “kapara” – “redemption”), which means the correction of all sins for which a person repents and asks to be corrected.

After all, it is clear that we ourselves cannot correct anything, and the sins we have committed are not ours at all because it is the Creator who created the evil inclination that rules over us and forces us to sin.

We are not guilty that we are immersed in egoism, which every time pushes us to think only about ourselves and not about others or about the Creator. Therefore, both sins and their correction are not our fault and not our merit because the Creator does everything. He has prepared all the sins and all the corrections against them for us, and we are between one and the other, like in a vice.

Our work is to relate everything to the Creator, both the sins and the corrections. We can only connect sin with correction when we can understand and feel that both of them come from the Creator and not from us. The Creator is above sins and above corrections. This is a special higher power above everything.

That is why Yom Kippur is a day of special joy that allows us to rise even higher above creation, to connect with the higher power, and to reach its level. All the sins and all the egoism that have been created by the Creator and the corrections that are achieved thanks to Him are necessary for us to understand the step that is above the evil and good inclinations, that is, to understand the Creator, who cannot be attained in any other way.

The Creator is separated from all creation, and it is possible to attain this essence only in this way, through the experience of our separation to the fullest extent. When we unite with each other, we unite with the Creator.

We rise above transgressions, above punishment and reward, and make these corrections so that only with their help will we reach the Creator who is detached from the whole creation. The Creator has prepared all these states for us so that we can attain Him: one, unique, and unified.

Yom Kippur is the main symbol of the process of attaining the upper force that is detached from the whole creation.

Without unification, without thoughts about the entire world Kli, and without thoughts about mutual help and about all of humanity it is impossible to achieve even the smallest spiritual revelation. All nations are destined to rise above their individual egoism and return to the system of Adam HaRishon, to become like one person, like one desire.

Yom Kippur is a spiritual state in which a person reveals that his transgression is that he thought he himself was transgressing and did not see that everything comes from the Creator. Meaning, he did not recognize that “There is none else besides Him.”

He thought he was doing everything by himself and he evaluated his thoughts and desires in his egoism. But now a person wants to correct his mistakes, all these impure discernments that are not related to the one, unique, and unified upper force. And this is what he prays and asks the Creator for.

This is the essence of the judgment day (translated literally, but usually it is called the Day of Atonement)—the day on which a person wants to atone and correct all the states and clarifications that he could not attribute to the upper force. After all, our whole job is to attribute everything that happens in the world to the upper force and to consider ourselves to be only a creation controlled by it one hundred percent.

The ascent of 125 spiritual steps is an increasing identification of oneself with the upper force until complete unification with it. When we completely correct the Kelim, which was intentionally broken by the Creator, and raise it to His level, then we will be ready to begin the true path to understand and unify with the Creator.

But these are secrets of the end of correction. When we achieve this together—all the creations who are now in this world and those who are not in it—then we will go further and find out what the Creator has prepared for us after the final correction.

In Yom Kippur we reveal that not only good, but also evil comes from the Creator and they have equal value. A person should bless for evil as well as for good because due to both of these forces he attains unification with the Creator.

This unification with the higher power is our common single goal, and therefore any past state must be perceived as an invitation for unification. It doesn’t matter what I feel or what happens in my mind, my heart, my body, or in my relationships, by this I am shown where I can add and strengthen the unification with the upper force.

The meaning of fasting on Yom Kippur is that we act only by the power of faith without using the power of reception.
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From the Daily Kabbalah Lesson, 9/26/20

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“A Spiritual Temporary Residence”

Dr. Michael LaitmanFrom My Facebook Page Michael Laitman 10/7/22

Today is the eve of Sukkot (Hebrew: Huts), a Jewish festival where the custom is to build huts and dwell in them for seven days. The traditional explanation to this custom is that it is to remind us that our ancestors were wanderers in the Sinai desert and lived in huts, without a permanent residence. But in Jewish spirituality, namely the wisdom of Kabbalah, there is an additional, and very different explanation to this custom, which has to do with improving our connections, and nothing at all to do with where we eat or sleep.

The wisdom of Kabbalah is a method for bringing people closer, for uniting them. Its goal is to bring people to the same level of connection that existed among the people of Israel at the inception of their nationhood, when they were connected as one man with one heart.

All of the Jewish festivals have two levels of explanation. The superficial level usually pertains to an event in the chronicles of the Jewish people. The deeper level pertains to discernments concerning the level of unity or division among Jews, and their mission to be a model of unity, a light to the nations.

Jewish festivals mark particular stages in the process of establishing permanent unity and achieving the final correction in a process called Tikkun Olam (correction of the world). In this process, the world transits from division and hatred into unity and love.

Normally, we live in a permanent residence. This represents a well-established level of connection between us. At such a level, people feel connected to a certain extent, they know what points to touch and what points to avoid, and feel complacent in the level of bonding and care among them. However, their complacency prevents them from touching on points of division that can lift them to higher levels of connection if they rise above them.

At that point, we must relinquish the comfort of our permanent residence and venture into a temporary one, where matters are not so clear and the bonding not yet solidified. However, if we want to become a model nation, we must show the world how to rise above adversities, and division is precisely the adversity to overcome.

Once we are in a temporary residence, and the connection between us is shaky, we must raise unity above our heads, meaning make it the most important, superior value. If we do this together, unity becomes our shield, our Sechah (canopy), which covers and protects us from the elements, namely from division.

The unity that is revealed under the canopy is called Ushpizin (guests), whom we welcome into our hut. Once we have completed seven manifestations of division and unity that we have built above it, and have hosted seven “guests,” it is considered that we have established and solidified a new degree of unity.

In such a state, it is considered that we return to our permanent residence with the new level of unity we have acquired. This marks the end of the festival of Sukkot, when we return to our homes. May we always strive to foster deeper and deeper connections among all Jews, above all differences, so we may be a model nation that brings peace to the world.

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Instructions for Constructing a Common Soul

938.05In our connection with our friends, we are looking for and want to grasp the Creator like radar captures the right wave. Therefore, we need to create such a connection that will have the qualities of the Creator, that is, mutual bestowal between us. If we have all achieved mutual bestowal, then we are definitely aimed at the Creator.

Everyone has seen how a radar spins in search of the desired wave; that is how we need to set up our connection. We ourselves do not know how to do this, but we ask the Creator to change us so that all of us together turn out to be a dish, an antenna, directed at the Creator according to the equivalence of our qualities. In accordance with this, everyone changes himself and adjusts to his friends so that everyone together matches the Creator.

Through such work, we unite into one soul and begin to receive instructions from the Creator inside our locator inside the ten about how we can change ourselves in order to catch the ray of light sent by Him even better and more correctly. And this ray, through its impact, begins to change us, turn us, and correct us so as to connect us with the Creator.

And at all the next degrees where we build a connection with the Creator, we tune in to Him more precisely and connect with Him at higher and higher frequencies with greater force.

For a perfect prayer from the ten, it is necessary to understand what each of the friends wants. And therefore, when reading Rabash’s articles about the group, we try to connect so that each passage connects us with the Creator.

In this way, we are getting closer and closer by building all kinds of forms of connection until we begin to feel the source influencing us and our responses to this influence, this means being connected to the Creator through direct light and reforming light, and building a spiritual Kli out of ourselves.

Then we reveal the Reshimot, spiritual actions, the entry and exit of light, the rise of the screen from degree to degree within the connection between us. We will study all the phenomena in the spiritual Partzuf described in Kabbalistic books on ourselves, as taught by Baal HaSulam, Ari, and other Kabbalists.
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From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 10/3/22, “Yom Kippur (Day of Atonement)”

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Yom Kippur—Recognition of Egoism

229Question: During Rosh HaShanah, a person decides to start a new life, and despite the fact that he needs to rise above his nature, he nevertheless wants to check all his qualities within ten days before Yom Kippur.

Comparing them with the qualities of the Creator, he sees that he cannot be like the Creator in any of them, and on Yom Kippur decides to make a restriction on them, which in our world are represented by five restrictions.

After that, five days later, which symbolize the five Sefirot, the Sukkot holiday begins. What is the essence of these holidays?

Answer: The New Year (Rosh HaShanah) is preceded by a whole series of days when people ask for forgiveness. They sort of evaluate their actions, what good and bad they have done, and in general they understand that they have not done anything particularly good.

This is how a person checks his actions and comes to the conclusion that he is obliged to obey the upper will of the Creator because “there is none else besides Him.” He accepts the upper will as the only force ruling in the world. From this state, he begins to evaluate himself. He really has a very serious analysis of his actions and deeds, which continues until Yom Kippur.

Yom Kippur is the inner state of a person when he realizes that only one big egoism is acting within him and he must rise above himself. After all, the main commandment of the Torah is “love your neighbor as yourself,” and he is absolutely far from this and even the opposite of this. Therefore, he asks for forgiveness.

This is the principle of Yom Kippur, when he is ready to stop using his egoistic desires. There are only five of them in a person. Therefore, they are represented by five restrictions in our world: a prohibition on eating, drinking, and so on.
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From KabTV’s “Spiritual States, Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur” 10/12/19

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294.2Question: What does Yom Kippur mean?

Answer: Yom Kippur – “Ki Purim,” as the day (Yom)  of Purim. “Kippur” is “Redemption,” “Purim” from the word “Pur,” which means fate.

Therefore, Yom Kippur shows all our transgressions, which we must gradually correct. From Yom Kippur to Hanukkah, we correct our bestowing desires to be only in bestowal, and from Hanukkah to Purim, we also correct the qualities of reception so that they are directed to bestowal. And in this way, we come to the Purim holiday.

There are certain prohibitions on Yom Kippur; people do not drink, do not wear leather clothes, and so on. This means that we find egoistic inclusions in all our desires, and therefore we cannot use them.

The five types of prohibitions correspond to five types of restriction because our egoistic desire consists of five levels. Each level corresponds to food, drink, clothing, and so on.

Question: Why can’t we wear leather clothes on this day?

Answer: Clothes (“Levush“) means that you have a Kli (Vessel), a certain correction, and then you can dress in such clothing. But in fact, you discover that all your desires are egoistic, and therefore you cannot clothe in them. The prohibition is in order not to use uncorrected desires.

A Kabbalist in his spiritual advancement fulfills these prohibitions, meaning, restrictions to his desires, checks himself, and acts accordingly.

Question: Do we also need to observe this in our world?

Answer: Well, in our world this exists as customs. Otherwise, they would not be passed from generation to generation for the people, and would exist only among Kabbalists who understand their essence and act in this way. Moreover, Kabbalists do this not on the calendar day of Yom Kippur, but every time they are in such a state.

Question: What does a Kabbalist ask for on this day?

Answer: He asks the Creator to help him to go beyond his egoism. He has no other requests.

There can be only two types of appeals to the Creator. The first is with gratitude for having received such a special work, the second is with a request for strength to rise even higher to the quality of bestowal.
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From KabTV’s “Spiritual States. Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur” 10/10/19

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Rosh HaShanah—Adam’s Birthday

744All the nations of the world celebrate the New Year as an ordinary corporeal holiday, and only the Jews have a special celebration as we celebrate the creation of Adam. This is a very significant date.

Five days before the New Year (Rosh HaShanah), the creation of the world took place, and on New Year’s Day, at the fifth hour of Friday, Adam was created.

All the red dates of the Jewish calendar are dedicated not to the corporeal holidays, but to various spiritual actions, including the creation of the world and the creation of Adam. They gave our people a general and purposeful movement forward.

Adam is a soul, i.e., a structure of force, a network of forces, which is supposedly located somewhere in space and is an analogy of the Creator.

But it was created from above, under the influence of the upper force, which is kindness, love, and bestowal. Therefore, the structure itself was in the same state of bestowal, love, and mercy toward itself, and was an internal, self-sufficient “cocoon” that did not need to develop, it existed by itself.

In order to force this structure to develop, it was necessary to shake it somehow, to introduce an element of interference into it, a sharp external influence. This was done with the help of an additional system called Hava or Eve. She disturbed Adam’s inner balance, and as a result, this structure exploded from the inside.

For example, when an imbalance occurs in an atomic bomb due to excessive convergence of the two halves, the critical mass increases and self-decay begins, which leads to a nuclear explosion.

The same thing happened here. It turns out that we basically celebrate the fall. It would seem that we should sit in mourning, fast, cry, and “sprinkle ashes on our heads.”

No, we celebrate it, because thanks to the shattering we can assemble ourselves from the fragments of Adam and Eve and bring ourselves to the state similar to the upper force that created them and become equal to it in perfection and eternity.

In this way, we correct what the Creator deliberately broke for us, just as parents disassemble a puzzle for a child so that he becomes smarter by assembling it. In all this action, we must see the preparation of the Creator who treats us with love and wishes that we reach His perfection, become equal to Him.

Therefore, we celebrate the opportunity given to us for correction as a holiday. This is the New Year.
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From KabTV’s “Holidays, Rosh HaShanah“

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Why Do We Need a Jewish New Year?

506.3Question: The Jewish New Year has come, the 5783rd Rosh HaShanah. At the time when it all started, there were no Jews. But it is called “Jewish” and Jews celebrate it.

The global question now is whether this the Jewish New Year or is it the World New Year? What would you call it?

Answer: All those who take upon themselves the system of correction, meaning are included in this chronology, which is called Hebrew from the word “Ivri” – to cross the border between our egoistic world and the upper, altruistic one. So, those who want to cross this border, even if they have not yet moved from egoism to altruism, immediately the count goes to 5,783.

And then they call themselves “Ivri,” “Jew” from the word “Yihud” – “union,” because the transition takes place in connection. In this way they celebrate this date, the date of the descent into their hearts and minds of understanding of how we can move from our world, the egoistic state, to the upper world, the altruistic state.

Comment: Jews in Israel and around the world celebrate the New Year, this is the Jewish New Year. And you say, it is really those who cross or want to cross this border who celebrate it.

My Response: What is the news for everyone celebrating today that this is considered the new year? I understand that there can be many dates. But, in general, the main thing is not the date, but the meaning, the essence. And the point is that a person should change from an egoist to an altruist.

If a person wants to change, if he goes to this change, then the new year period comes for him.

Question: And all the attributes of the new year—apple, honey, sweetening life by dipping an apple in honey—does this have some deep spiritual meaning?

Answer: The spiritual meaning lies only in the human spirit. There are no spiritual roots in apples and honey, just like there isn’t in the head of a fish.

Comment: And they say that you need to start from the head, not from the tail.

My Response: Because this is the new year , the head of the year. That’s why it starts like this. But in principle, if you take not a fish, but a bull’s head? It could be even better. 🙂 The year will be even more successful. 🙂

Question: What is the spiritual meaning of the phrase “start from the head”?

Answer: You need to start from the head. Meaning, for what you want to live for this year, what it should give you, what you should rise up to, what you should demand from yourself, it’s all in the head.

Question: And what to rise to? What to demand from yourself?

Answer: Only getting closer to the Creator. Nothing more is needed. This is the only solid setting for us. And that is why we are called “Israel” – “Yashar Kel,” “straight to the Creator.”

Question: So, in principle, the new year is a constant thought and movement exclusively to the Creator?

Answer: It is not just constant thoughts and movements only in the new year. You’re the one making the groundwork for the whole of next year.

Question: So you do this kind of backing for the whole year? And if you put everything well and correctly, will the year roll? Will it go well?

Answer: No! It doesn’t mean anything yet. It would have been nice to pay off in the new year for the whole year! 🙂

Question: So it won’t work like this? Do you need to work constantly?

Answer: Yes, it won’t slip through.

Question: Then it turns out that every day can be a new year because every day you renew thoughts about the Creator and about the connection?

Answer: This is also true. So, this date is purely symbolic. There is nothing in this state of the Earth around the Sun and us on Earth, in general, there is nothing.

Question: What are your wishes to all people this New Year? You see how things are developing in the world. What a year we’ve had!

Answer: And it is still unknown what the new one will be like. We are facing really scary questions.

I think we should just wish humanity to be wiser. To understand what force really guides us, why such negative forces and threats arise in our world, and how we can even use them to turn ourselves in the right direction, to the right goal, to achieve unity, and in this unity discover the eternal great meaning.
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From KabTV’s “News with Dr. Michael Laitman” 9/22/22

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“Is happiness internal or external?” (Quora)

Dr. Michael LaitmanMichael Laitman, On Quora: “Is happiness internal or external?“

Everything we sense is internal. No one else senses what an individual senses, and if someone senses something and tells another about it, which the other person cannot adequately relate to as part of their feelings, they then do not know what they are talking about.

Whatever is not inside the person is thus nonexistent. Therefore, happiness is internal, and it appears when something we truly aspire for becomes fulfilled.

Such a feeling can be called “happiness.” However, there are a range of levels between what we suffer from and what makes us happy. It turns out that the greatest happiness appears when we feel ourselves coming closer to balance with nature, similar to how a child yearns for his or her mother. That is when we feel happiness.

Happiness is a strong desire for a fulfillment that we always wanted to materialize, but we had already lost hope. Then, the positive force of nature—the force of bestowal, love and connection called “the Creator”—appears. It utters “Where have you been? I have been looking for you!” And the person wants to say: “I am the one who has been looking for You! Not me—but You, where have You been?” That is how they come together, in a simple fashion, without any hesitation or words.

That is happiness. However, it is not the kind of fusion that occurs in our world, when two bodies cling to each other while retaining their own space and individual sensations. Here we have no bodies, but a reciprocal sensation of mutual diffusion. As a result, a certain state of being emerges.

In terms of our sense of self, we then want it to melt away. We feel absolutely no need for it. However, if the feeling of oneself disappears, then the feeling of the other will also disappear. That is why it is designed such that the self needs to exist.

In the language of Kabbalah, it is described as follows: the Aviut, i.e. the “thickness” of the ego, does not disappear. Moreover, as the ego keeps increasing, we can acquire the ability to harmonize it with the quality of bestowal. As a result, the ego, the hatred, becomes greater, and love also increases. In our linear world, we do not understand how it works. That is how it plays out in the spiritual realm. And such hatred and love increase to a state of infinity, where we feel infinity. There is then no limit to such happiness, but it has to be felt, otherwise it is meaningless. However, there is a very long path ahead of us before we reach such a sensation.

Based on the video “Is Happiness Internal or External?” with Kabbalist Dr. Michael Laitman and Semion Vinokur. Written/edited by students of Kabbalist Dr. Michael Laitman.

Rosh HaShanah—Time to Ask for Forgiveness

562.02Rosh HaShanah is the time to ask forgiveness from the Creator for your crimes. In other words, I feel that I do not have a sense of the importance and greatness of the Creator, and I apologize for this. After all, if I felt the greatness and importance of the Creator, then of course I would behave differently. It turns out that I lack only the feeling of the Creator.

And that’s why I ask: “Let me feel You and I will become different!” This is what a person should say to the Creator; this is the correct request and the right apology. After all, why do I commit crimes? Because I lack the sense of the Creator, which is called faith. There is no feeling of the Creator, there is no faith, and therefore, there is no one to stop me. I cannot do otherwise because if the Creator does not rule over me, then the evil inclination, egoism, rules.

Therefore, I ask the Creator to take authority over me. This is my main request, after which we come to Rosh HaShanah, we come to the king, and we want to place Him to reign over us.

I want to repent of all my sins, to know and feel everything that prevents my correction. I ask the Creator to open my eyes and let me feel where the crime is and where the commandment is so that I understand where I fulfill His covenant to give, to love, and to unite, and where I do the opposite.

I don’t feel it now at every moment of my life. If I did, of course I would improve. The problem is that I don’t feel the Creator, the force of bestowal, which I could check myself with. So with this, I turn to the Creator and demand that He give me the opportunity to test myself regarding the force of bestowal, and then I will never commit a crime.

We do not recall the past and do not ask for forgiveness for it. I should not cry about what happened, but about the fact that I do not strive for correction and do not require the Creator to help me in this. I want to move forward, not dig into the past and shed tears about what I did.

Did I do something? I didn’t do anything, the Creator did everything. And He did it on purpose so that I now know what I need to fix. I take this evil, the crime that has now been revealed, and begin to correct it. My whole aspiration is forward, not backward. This is the difference!
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From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 9/16/20, “What Is Preparation for Selichot (Forgiveness)”

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