Then suddenly this sensation is lost; we forget about everything and have nothing left of this state. Why does that happen?
Answer: It is because only one small portion of your egoism is revealed to you, which you rose above and began to, at least, listen to what is happening in spirituality. In order to reveal greater egoism, you have to add it. Therefore, egoism is added to you, and this is accompanied by a feeling of descent.
Suppose we go through a certain state, talk about the group, feel something. In order to rise to the next level, we need an additional bit of egoism. If at our initial egoistic level we had 10 kg of egoism, then another 10 kilograms are added. Since this egoism is not yet corrected, we feel a descent of minus 10.
But actually it is a plus. Is it possible to grow without egoism? Now, working in the group, I turn this egoism into an ascent, and so I grow to the next step.
Therefore, we go through states of descent and we should appreciate them! The most important thing is to appreciate our egoism. If it were not there, we would not be able to rise, we could not feel the Creator. We need to reach a state of minus infinity.
We must feel the entire Malchut of the world of Infinity, the whole huge Kli (vessel of the soul), everything the Creator created. Can you imagine the great egoism we must reach? Otherwise we will not feel ourselves against the Creator. After all, the connection with Him goes only through our ego.
It is said that Pharaoh brings Israel closer, that is, people directed to the Creator, to Him that gives them their egoism. Therefore, we must be able to overcome all the states of the descent in order to most effectively implement the revealed egoism.
From the Kabbalah Lesson in Russian 4/4/19