Answer: It does not matter. I can understand that everything comes from the Creator, He plays with me like that. And then—oops! I’m shaking like a rabbit under a bush again.
Question: What is the way out of this?
Answer: Move forward rising by faith above reason. Only this. Thank the Creator for leading us through such animalistic fears. In this way we will be constantly moving.
Question: Is a Kabbalist afraid too?
Answer: A Kabbalist has even deeper fears. Especially during the descents. He cannot be in faith above reason all the time. He must fall into reason and then rise into faith. And he agrees to everything.
He goes through states that are much sharper and more controversial than a common man. His states of fear and devotion to the goal literally throw him from the abyss to the peak.
Question: Is it true that a Kabbalist is not afraid for himself, but is only afraid not to harm the Creator.
Answer: How could he not be afraid for himself? If he does not experience such states, in relation to what will he measure himself? As it is written: “When you hid your face, I was terrified.” The Creator gives him such states.
From the Kabbalah Lesson in Russian 10/14/2018