The Torah, “Numbers,” 14:39 – 14:45: Moses related all these words to the children of Israel, and the people mourned greatly. They arose early in the morning and ascended to the mountaintop, saying, “We are ready to go up to the place of which the Lord spoke, for we have sinned.”
Moses said, “Why do you transgress the word of the Lord? It will not succeed.
Do not go up, for the Lord is not among you, [so that] you will not be beaten by your enemies. For the Amalekites and the Canaanites are there before you, and you will fall by the sword. For you have turned away from the Lord, and the Lord will not be with you.
They defiantly ascended to the mountaintop, but the Ark of the Covenant of the Lord and Moses did not move from the camp. The Amalekites and the Canaanites who lived on the mountain came down and smote them and crushed them [pursuing them] until Hormah.
Question: Why were the children of Israel punished? After all, they expressed their regret and said: “Yes, we have sinned?”
Answer: There was no sin. The Creator arranged everything! The problem is that they depended on their own powers, thinking that they had to overcome the mountain by themselves. They wanted to do it by their own egoistic powers, but the mountain is the attribute of bestowal, so how could they climb it? Where is the adhesion with the Creator? Where is the absolute bestowal? There is none!
On the contrary, if I say that I have sinned, it means that I take responsibility for what I do. Admitting the sin is the sin!
I am nothing and I have to constantly advance with my eyes closed following the force of love and bestowal so that they will gradually reside in me. Now I only gather levels of ascent towards the attribute of Bina.
The attribute of Bina is the attribute of complete bestowal, which reaches me only by an illumination from above. This is the Light that Reforms, which means the Creator’s force. In an ideal state I would say that I am ready for everything that the Creator shows me.
But I continue the sin of the spies. Why didn’t they call out to the upper force? “We have brought giant fruits but they are beyond our powers. How can we enter this land?” Why didn’t they demand the Creator’s help but instead turned to the people?” See what He does with us? He sends us to a sure death, tempting us with a wonderful land where an immense power lives and which will kill us. “Are these the nation’s leaders whom the most advanced people of the generation have chosen?” It turns out that they are all against the one force, the good and the benevolent, who wants to bring them to the Promised Land, but they cannot even approach the next level.
This was clear beforehand, because it is impossible to leap from the level of Malchut to the level of Bina at one time. The difference between Malchut and Bina is 40 levels. Therefore, when we look at Bina from Malchut, its attainment seems impossible!
But on the other hand, who brings us to this? The Creator. Who said that they should send spies there? The Creator. So why didn’t they turn to Him? Why did they begin to speak against Him?: “Look what He does with us; He sends us to certain death, luring us to a beautiful land with terrible giants that will kill us!”
Theoretically, if they had called out to the Creator, He would have raised them on wings to the level of Bina. But on the other hand, this is impossible because a person has to experience all this himself, to chew and process it.
This is the reason that Moses says: “Wherefore now do ye transgress the commandment of the LORD, seeing it shall not prosper? Go not up, for the LORD is not among you; that ye be not smitten down before your enemies.” He realizes that they are not connected to the Creator!
Comment: This is so complicated.
Answer: This isn’t complicated at all. It is a good thing that we discover the right and left lines and thus advance. This is our history, not the past or the future, but the history ahead of us!
From KabTV’s “Secrets of the Eternal Book” 5/6/15