I am in a confused state, but thanks to the group, the study, etc., and thanks to certain rights, I understand that the current state comes from the Creator. The end of this string is enough in order to upload the right picture: that everything comes from Him and that I want to know Him, to feel Him, and to reveal Him through the states I now overcome and work with. He operates through all these concealments while I become more connected to Him through all these concealments. These concealments become the thickness where we meet and I understand it.
In that case. this kind of work is very fruitful and leads to positive outcomes. I move forward through all these vicissitudes and tighten my connection with the Creator from one day to the next, under the rain of missiles and other interruptions.
I don’t fully reveal Him and will not attain His attitude, His mind, and His relations unless the whole Malchut of the world of Infinity is fully revealed in concealment. All this is actually revealed in the Aviut (thickness), in the problems that come along. It is in this Aviut that I get to know Him, feel Him. and hold on to Him.
There is no other way. This is actually my personal success. Later we have to think about how all this is related to the group and to the whole world.
One way or the other, this has to be my goal at any given moment, when I discover the interruptions, do not nullify them, but actually ascend above them. The principle of “if I am a not for myself who is for me” actually belongs to them and the final principle “There is none else besides Him.” It is not only the beginning and the end but the rationale of my search, and the formula of its success are also His doing.
From the 3rd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 7/24/14, Writings of Baal HaSulam