Answer: I understand and know that it is very difficult, but you should understand that it is a game, that you are being tested as to whether or not you attribute your whole life to the Creator.
If you accept the fact that “There is none else besides Him” at least a little, then accordingly you have to decide whether you did whatever happened to you or whether it was the Creator operating you.
You should feel the same about the future: Everything depends on the Reshimot (spiritual genes) that will be revealed and the Light that will appear in the Reshimo. You are between them like a middleman who has to determine to what extent and how the Light will influence the Reshimo. There is nothing other than the Light and the Reshimo and here you can match the two, connect them, and bring them closer together.
This is possible only with regard to the future, whereas in the past everything has already happened and was done by the Creator. That’s the way it should have been; it was predetermined. It isn’t at all about whether or not you could have done things differently.
You cannot say that about the future at the moment since you are not between the two worlds yet and cannot tie these two opposites into one. But you have to say that it wasn’t you, you did nothing in the past; it was the Creator who did everything, and you adhere to this thought and feeling regarding the past.
A moment after you decide you agree with the past, you will feel the heavy thoughts and regrets again. Once again you will think about why you did or did not do something, why you behaved in a certain manner towards someone, why you lost something; I lost money here and missed good opportunities in life. There are many things you can regret about your life. This wound is opened up again on purpose so you will examine your past but so that you will complete your attitude towards the upper force, towards the one force that operates in reality.
From the 2nd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 10/7/13, The Zohar