If from the beginning you do not want to go from Lo Lishma (not for Her name) to Lishma (for Her name), to bestowal, then it is preferable not to do anything at all. At least don’t ask the Creator for the sake of the ego. After all, you agree on a partnership with Him, just to get more from Him.
How should we act in order not to turn into leeches that demand “Give me both this world and the next world!” but instead of this, learn from the Creator about His attribute of bestowal without, “building” on His riches?
Thus, the state of Lo Lishma is very delicate, serious, dramatic, and life changing. After all, from this point, I can go in two completely different directions and I need to make a choice.
The search for the meaning of life, its source and goal, brings me to this point, to the teacher, the group, the books, the system, and I begin to clarify it. From it, I can go back in all kinds of directions, and I can move forward.
But how can I discover where “forward” and “backward” are? After all, I don’t see the direction. I can be told about this a thousand times, but still I don’t see it. I need to clarify it myself.
Backward is death and forward is life, but to me it can be perceived completely differently. How can I check it in order to constantly direct myself?
I have partners concerning this point: the group, the teacher and of course, the Creator. Now I need to organize all these components in order to advance in the good direction.
But what is good: Is it what is good for me, for my ego, or about someone else’s goals? There are numerous questions here and I need to clarify. It seems that I am within a sphere with 360 degrees of choices of direction, and I can choose whatever direction I wish! Where should I go? That is the huge question that a person faces.
It takes a long time until he clarifies this question, and this clarification ends only at Gmar Tikkun (end of correction). In this way we attain the answer to the same question about the meaning of life that we arrived with. Although it seemed to you that you began to feel and understand it beforehand, we actually attain it only at the end. Indeed within this question are included all of your thoughts and desires, and all of them need to be corrected and fulfilled, and then it means that you reached the answer.
We stand before this point, and we need to connect ourselves together: the group, the teacher, the Creator, and another component, the Torah.
The Creator is the source. I, the group, and the teacher are the means. The Torah is the force of correction that I activate. Thus it is said, “Israel, the Light and the Holy One, Blessed be He, are One.” And if I connect all of these into one place, the correct path opens before me.
This path doesn’t exist by itself, it is created before me like a direction that was opened, like a straight arrow, like a vector, on the condition that I choose all the items of data correctly. I need each time to organize correctly all the attributes, my thoughts and desires, to clarify the direction, and advance forward again and again. In this way, we correct ourselves.
From the 3rd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 1/11/12, “Study of the Ten Sefirot”