How can you continue to study if the feeling of fulfillment is lost? Continue without feeling! This is what the Creator shows me:“Can you do something without feeling or not? Ahh, so you can’t work without compensation; that is, you work for Pharaoh and not for Me? Then do not turn to Me, go to Pharaoh!”
We must try to get out of the kingdom of Pharaoh with the help of a group. Go inside the unity of friends so that they will drag you forward. Philosophize less and join the group, trustingly, like a child nullifying himself before adults. And then you will be able to grow correctly.
The exodus from Egypt is not an escape from one place to another, but an escape from selfish desire. Each of us comes out of our egoism and is included in the desire of the group. When I join the group, it means that I have left Egypt and crossed the Red Sea, Yam Suf (Final Sea).
Therefore, if you have studied for twenty years and now you can no longer continue, then you are directly in front of the Final Sea and you have no choice but to jump inside the group. It necessarily exists, even if no one feels it. And when you jump into this unity and clutch for your friends, it will be considered that you crossed the Final Sea.
It is very important to move from your individual desire to the general desire of the group. I do not see its true condition, the spiritual picture. Jumping inside, you will find that you have something to hold on to. But you are obliged to jump into this sea, and the moment you jump, you will find what to grab onto, like a baby clinging to his mother. This is called the exodus from Egypt, from our egoism, into the Sinai Desert.
From the 2nd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 4/8/20, Writings of Baal HaSulam, “Introduction to The Book of Zohar”