Question: You say that the path of light is a simpler path. But it turns out that you try to proceed the best way and everything is as usual. You do not understand if you are falling behind or if it is necessary to have such difficulties?
Answer: If you make efforts, take everything that happens to you as a reward. Although at times it is very unpleasant, it is precisely thanks to such reactions that you will advance. Therefore, do not think that the answer to your correct and good deeds will be immediate positive occurrences in your life, because you cannot be pulled out of your egoism this way.
You have to be pulled out of it. Even if you made one motion toward spirituality, you nonetheless still remain in the ego. So you need to be pushed again and again, and you can be pushed with various negative impacts.
So you should not say: “I put in so much effort with my friends in the group, in study, in dissemination, and what is the use? I have nothing.” You do not know the results that accumulate from such efforts, which in the end will “shoot” and will give the correct effect.
Question: So, I should embrace blows as strokes?
Answer: As approval. It is said: “Whom the Lord loves, He rebukes.” You have to perceive this as a reward. Thus, you rise above the ego. After all, of utmost importance for you is to get out of it. How can you rise otherwise?
That is, when you begin to hate your ego and try to rise above it, then you will understand correctly all the motivations of the Creator.
From the Kabbalah Lesson in Russian 7/14/19