Answer: I do not know. I never asked nor answered this question. I have a duty, and I must realize it.
Remark: But people know you, criticize you, love you—whatever…
My Comment: As for whether they love me more or hate me more, I find it difficult to say. And to work for posterity only for the sake of being appreciated afterward is also not in my nature.
I will say only one thing. At the age of thirty-five, I was a fairly wealthy man who could afford not to work and to live peacefully somewhere on an island or in Canada. One could prefer this kind of life, but I could not afford it.
I chose the path with a lot of mistakes, doubts, and torments. But this is my way.
From the Kabbalah Lesson in Russian 12/31/17