However, the wisdom of Kabbalah tells us that there is another level that is above me and that is different from me in its attributes. My attribute is a desire to receive, and the attribute of the upper level, of the upper dimension, is a desire to bestow.
If I look at the two levels at once from the level of my life, I advance toward the goal of creation. I constantly take into account that there is an upper state above me that I must reach, and so my life is focused on and dedicated to this upper goal.
However, then I feel that I am split in my feelings, my perception, my understanding, and in determining my state. I must either accept everything according to what I feel—according to my desires and my attributes, my mind and my feelings—and thus assess my inner state as everyone does, or I can attribute myself to an upper level and assess how I see myself from there, from the direction that the Creator looks at me.
The upper level dominates and determines everything that happens to me now, so how can I imagine that I am on the next upper level? I must imagine that I have attained the attributes of the upper level that are totally focused on bestowal and that I feel the love of others, the love of friends, and the love of the attribute of bestowal itself that is called the love of the Creator. I imagine how I stop hating and the attribute of love and bestowal totally fills me, and that I feel it as a great pleasure.
In that case, I already see reality from the perspective of the upper, of the Creator. This means that my perception is split. If I sink into my state and determine everything from my attributes, feelings, and calculate according to the principle of “a judge has only what his eyes see,” it is called truth, my opinion, according to my real state and what I feel. On the other hand, I see things from an upper state to which I seemingly have ascended and how would I see, feel and judge what happens if I had the attribute of bestowal and love of others, as my ego is restricted.
This state is called faith, which means that there are two levels here: truth and faith. On the current level of truth, I feel deficiencies, incompleteness, discomfort, uneasiness, just like everyone in this world and even worse because I want to rise above that. In the state of faith, there is wholeness and nothing is lacking, and there is total peace and comfort. I am in adhesion with the upper force, and I see from one end of the world to the other filled with gratitude to the Creator.
I must be in these two states together! Then, I determine the direction from one state to another. It seems that it is easier to imagine things that way and that it is possible to remain in this double perception and to, each time, try to bring the future closer so that the attribute of love and bestowal through the group will really bring it to a higher level.
At the same time, there is the matter of the recognition of evil, the inability to ascend, and a prayer of many is born. We will have to collect and accumulate our efforts on account of my efforts by ascending and descending again and again, losing everything, and thus filling the sea of the Sitra Achra (the other side). This sea swallows all our efforts the moment a person falls, but later it will return everything according to the condition, “He hath swallowed down riches, and he shall vomit them up again.” Then, we are rewarded to ascend to an upper level.
We must get used to this work. However, it seems that it is perfectly possible to be on two levels simultaneously: truth and faith.
From the Preparation to the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 11/28/13