Question: What does it mean to be the Creator’s worker without any preconditions?
Answer: Suppose you say: “I don’t care what I do, I am ready to do anything from being your deputy or your chief foreman, to being the last, lowest, most despised cleaning man. I am ready to work for any wages from half the kingdom to nothing at all. I don’t care how pleasant the work is, whether I receive pleasure from it, or whether I am beaten. I am ready to be beaten every workday as long as you allow me to work for you. I beg you, take me without any preconditions!”
Everything depends on your tolerance here, on your patience, and on whether you are ready to withstand the unpleasantness and the pleasantness, the rewards and the punishment involved. Thus you advance above your “donkey,” above your ego that feels good or bad, and receive half the kingdom or blows in return for a day’s work. But the human being in you is totally adhered to the landlord. Do you agree to work this way?
You want to be given such conditions since it helps you attain the pure intention with regard to the landlord. But if you didn’t have such conditions you wouldn’t understand where you are and whether it is your ego that motivates you, lies to you; you are like the thief running before everyone shouting, “Catch the thief.”
You want to know exactly who is managing you, and it is possible only according to the changing states. You will attain nothing by feeling bad alone; there is no Light without darkness, and there is no darkness without Light; you need to feel both.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 5/17/13, Writings of Rabash