A person must check his reactions every moment. Maybe he asks the Creator to give him a good life? In this case it is as if he is saying: “You are sending me evil. Please, be kind to me.” This is what the “99 percent” do.
Or a person says otherwise: “I realize that I feel evil and I understand that the reason for it lies in my qualities, which are opposite to You. After all, everyone rejects according to his own flaws. And I ask You for correction: Give me the strength to correct myself.”
A person experiences burdening along the way (“I have created the evil inclination”), but he remembers that the Creator sends it to him (“I have created the Torah as a spice”). And then the person acquires the Light, which is concealed in the Torah and returns to the Source. He asks for the correction of his own qualities: They are directed towards egoistic reception and are opposite to the Creator—so let them become directed towards bestowal and then the person will feel that the Creator is kind.
But why do I need this? To feel good? In this case, I am still an egoist. Is it so I would stop cursing the Creator? “What if He punishes me for perceiving His goodness as evil?” No, this is also egoism. So how do I form my reaction? What state do I need to come to? This is not about words but the heart’s aspirations: What correction am I asking for?
I ask for a correction when I feel bad in my desire to receive, but in my intention, directed towards the Creator, I feel that it is coming from Him, Good, Who does good.
In this way a person divides into two parts that are connected: He is submerged in darkness in his egoistic, restricted desire for pleasure—and he feels the Light above it. And then he is sure that the correction that he receives is not to satisfy his self-love. No, his pleasure is above this, and he really is in a state of bestowal.
For example: Mom makes me porridge, but I do not like it. Mom knew what she was doing: She made the healthiest food for me. But I cannot see the value in it. Should I ask her for a different porridge? Or should I eat this one that tastes bad, and change my attitude towards mom above my sensations? This way I will begin to acquire her qualities, her view of the world, her desires, directed towards bestowal. This is how I grow as I acquire my spiritual image.
There is no other solution – it is written: “All will attain Me, from the small to the great.” And “attaining” means to unite above our egoism. This is the fundamental principle of spiritual work. And even though it might appear difficult, in reality it is very easy when I act in unity with the group, and it is impossibly difficult when I try to move on my own.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 5/3/12, Shamati #8