There is only one aspiration against which all obstacles and problems are revealed, it is the aspiration towards unity. If you are constantly pushing yourself towards unity, then you reveal the forces fighting against it. And then you realize the necessity for the help of the Light, the Creator.
In essence, the situation is very simple. However, we do not work with it directly, because we do not have the spiritual vessels for this, the “letters of work,” and that is why it seems to us that this is so difficult.
A desire existed that was assembled from numerous pieces connected together by the force of the upper Light. This structure was called “The First Man,” Adam HaRishon. This was a body, consisting of pieces, grains of desire welded together. The glue, which held them together and glued them to each other was the Light. It existed originally.
There was very little of it, which is called the Light Nefesh de Nefesh, but there was no need for more since the desires were also very small, only of the zero stage (Aviut Shoresh). This is how Adam HaRishon was before the transgression, an angel, created above, not possessing an egoistic desire.
And suddenly, a force of desire awakens inside of him, which seems to be good and is called Hava (Eve). She says: “Let’s receive for the sake of bestowal, like in the world of Nikudim!” And here they are, the two of them, Adam and Hava, they want to receive the upper Light for the sake of bestowal, meaning, to reach the great state, to become adults instead of small children. They think that a great state means a great bestowal to the Creator, and this is really so because this is receiving for the sake of bestowal!
Hava is the 2nd, 3rd and 4th levels of desire (Aviut Bet, Gimel and Dalet), and Adam was then, the 0 (root) and the 1st level (Aviut Shoresh and Aleph), simple and pure. And a woman appears here, the so-called “help against him,” a large and strong desire, and says: “You know what we can reach together?” (A strong desire is called a woman, while a small one is called a man, although in our world it seems to us to be the opposite.)
And indeed, the two of them together can receive the Light for the sake of bestowal for the whole of the huge desire to enjoy. However, Adam had the strength of overcoming only his small desire. The Creator gave him all of this: the desire and the screen for it. Everything was merged with the Creator and in unity, a wonderful system.
And suddenly, he gets an addition of a large desire to enjoy, for which he did not have the strength for unity: the 2nd, 3rd and 4th levels, like in a great state of the world Nikudim. Adam HaRishon is not capable of such a union with the Light, he has no strength for it and he breaks apart into pieces, which are now called separate souls.
They all existed inside of Adam HaRishon before as well, but they were glued together, like a fish’s caviar inside of a bubble. And suddenly, the bubble bursts and all of the eggs spread out. This is exactly how these souls were at first glued to each other thanks to the upper Light holding them together, but in a small state.
But when a desire to enjoy has burst out inside of them, it has become bigger than the Light, which was gluing them together. An explosion happened, the boundaries were broken and all of the souls came outside. This is how Adam HaRishon transgressed and broke apart.
From that time on, each part has received a desire of all levels: 0-1-2-3-4. This is already not that small desire, which used to be there before. All of that Light, which they were planning to receive for the sake of bestowal, has turned into egoism inside of them. Now these desires want to enjoy this Light by themselves.
It turned out that now there is a great, unlimited desire to enjoy concealed inside of us. We do not know about it because we are only given the thinnest, upper layer to feel. However, even this layer is being revealed only under the condition, that we want to unite into that system of Adam HaRishon. And then the broken desires begin to be revealed.
The rest relates to me, to what is inside of the tiny caviar, one from among billions of people, like that of caviar. These are only animal desires, defining my simple existence, like that of a single caviar egg. And only if I unite with others, will I reveal the force of fragmentation, which needs to be corrected.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 2/17/12, Writings of Rabash