Longing For The Unknown
It is written in Divrei Hayamim I (Chronicles 1) 28:9: Know the God of your fathers and serve Him. To know means being conscious because the Nefesh, that is, the desire in itself, cannot exist without consciousness, without a sensation that there is something clear, something definite within it. Desire must feel and define its sensations and compare them.
Together with understanding the sensations, a fulfillment appears; you see the person strives and longs for true service to the Creator. This is what is in us, this is what pushes us. Our lives are so confused, concealing from us what we are truly doing.
We are also now carrying out all that we are required to do, only the true state, the true world in which we are found, is concealed from us. We feel ourselves as a shadow of our true state, and all that we do is directed towards returning to awareness of this subconscious state. But along with this, neither our world nor the actions that we do within it will change; rather, we will see it in another form.
The person doesn’t understand that his longing, his aspiration, all that he does for the sake of egoistic development (it makes no difference how he acts in our world), all our actions are contingent on only one thing and are directed towards it: the desire to perceive the Creator. And until we perceive the Creator, the origin which illuminates us and gives us life, we will not rest and we will always feel unwell. In other words, the origin for all of our negative feelings is the concealment of the Creator, while His discovery gives us fulfillment, ecstasy, which is the goal of creation.
The person aspires to perceive the Creator in all his actions, both consciously and unconsciously. You see, it’s as if we desire and are ready to even agree to nullify our ego somehow to connect together: “Put before us all the conditions given for existence that we can fulfill, then we will be ready to discover You.”
But even though we have urges like these, not even drives, but permanent desires, this is still not enough. Even if we gather together, connect, sing, cry, dance, learn, work on connection, it makes no difference what we do and how much we strive, our efforts will not yield fruit if the Light of the Creator will not illuminate them.
Therefore our efforts should not to be either spontaneous or temporary. They must be crystallized in the right form with intensity, with direction, with character in order to attract the Light of the Creator onto us. Without the influence of the Light on us, our nature would remain the same egoistic nature, and we will “stew” within ourselves, no qualitative changes will take place within us.
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From the St. Petersburg Convention “Day Three” 7/14/13, Lesson 5
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A preacher said- to make heaven is by grace only , does ithis means it is not by our choice to determine if we can make heaven.
1. Again what is rapture and where is heaven and where is paradise- will the world at any time revert back to it original status before sin and does this constitute rapture or the change.
2. Each day of my life is governed by the desire to work toward godliness, I keep seeing life as a person that is exposed to various proposals and opportunities. but many a times I say to myself – the best thing is not to believe every thought that come from the inside is me but a call to give ate decision on how your life will evolve, in this case I say no to these commands if they are not what I thought of my true self , saying no whether they pose as envy , jealousy, lust, greed , and I ask – is this attitude enough but it has helped me to control my thought form , I have become better, because I have discovered that as human, these thoughts must come up , but the decision that I make to accept or reject is intrinsic to my course in life .
Please advice me , I want to work with God – that is overall my desire. – is there a formula – am I working well?
A preacher said- to make heaven is by grace only , does ithis means it is not by our choice to determine if we can make heaven.
1. Again what is rapture and where is heaven and where is paradise- will the world at any time revert back to it original status before sin and does this constitute rapture or the change.
2. Each day of my life is governed by the desire to work toward godliness, I keep seeing life as a person that is exposed to various proposals and opportunities. but many a times I say to myself – the best thing is not to believe every thought that come from the inside is me but a call to give ate decision on how your life will evolve, in this case I say no to these commands if they are not what I thought of my true self , saying no whether they pose as envy , jealousy, lust, greed , and I ask – is this attitude enough but it has helped me to control my thought form , I have become better, because I have discovered that as human, these thoughts must come up , but the decision that I make to accept or reject is intrinsic to my course in life .
In my thinking I have wondered that the state of the soul just like the world with the atmospheric pollution like the ozone problem , the emissions – hence it looks like what we give the soul or what we allow to flourish within determines its overall evolvement .
Please advice me , I want to work with God – that is overall my desire. – is there a formula – am I working well?