Answer: The desire when I want to give is the desire to bestow. There is nothing other than the desire to bestow (the Creator) and the desire to receive (the created being).
The fact that we see concrete items and objects around us is an illusion, and all this actually does not exist. Initially, there was only one desire, the Creator, the desire to bestow, which later created a desire to receive. These two desires exist one opposite the other.
In order to give the desire to receive independence, it was created and developed with the intention for itself. To the extent that it feels the desire for its own sake, meaning the ego, it is separate from the Creator.
As one moves away from the Creator, the desire to receive at the same time feels that it is detached from something and wonders: “Why do I exist? What is happening to me? Who manages me?”
All these questions remain empty, unanswered, and then it starts looking: “Who created me, for what, and why? Gradually, it begins to act, to make progress in the search for its source, and eventually it finds the desire to bestow.
When one begins to understand that another desire exists around him, a desire for bestowal, but he exists inside himself and does not feel that he is in the desire to bestow, all kinds of conflicts and decisions take place in him. Then we can speak about a created being who wants to exit himself and be in contact with the Creator.
Question: Is the desire to give the initial, original desire given to a person who enters a group?
Answer: When the Creator pushes a person toward Him and wants to bring him closer to Him, He gives him such desires. He sort of lures a person, He flirts with him.
From KabTV’s “Fundamentals of Kabbalah” 4/7/19