Question: If the reality I feel is only a reaction within me, then how can I feel something outside of this reaction?
Answer: You cannot. It is impossible. We always feel only ourselves, our reaction to something that is happening and nothing more.
To the extent that we are like the thing that is happening, we feel it based on our reaction.
How do we attain the Creator? We must create such qualities in ourselves called “the Creator,” and then we will understand and feel Him. Only in this way.
Regarding anything we feel, the Kli (vessel) feels only what it feels within itself and nothing else.
From KabTV’s “Fundamentals of Kabbalah,” 9/15/19