The Torah “Numbers” 11:4 – 11:6: But the multitude among them began to have strong cravings. Then even the children of Israel once again began to cry, and they said, “Who will feed us meat? We remember the fish that we ate in Egypt free of charge, the cucumbers, the watermelons, the leeks, the onions, and the garlic. But now, our bodies are dried out, for there is nothing at all; we have nothing but manna to look at.”
For what reason did the nation begin to complain, after all, there weren’t any previous assumptions? Since in their midst was “Erev Rav (the mixed multitude).” That means that all the desires of the nation had not yet been purified from the ego, and since these desires called, “Erev Rav” were so close by, they were afraid of the Creator, but worked for their own benefit, for the benefit of their “Pharaoh.”
Imagine a man who has fear of the Creator and executes all that is written in the holy books: in the prayer books, in the Shulchan Aruch. For what? I carry out all that which is spoken about, and You should carry out what you promised me! That is called, “Erev Rav.” The person, as if, exists near the Creator, and as if, provides for himself a future in the Garden of Eden. He can even die knowing that before him awaits Nirvana (complete rest). There are known cases when, at the last moment, terrorists were arrested, they shouted that they wanted to die. This is because they were ready to enter heaven in another moment.
The Erev Rav incites the nation, meaning man’s desires, and he begins to complain. He doesn’t accept what he should. This is because all the movements in the desert are empty movements. A person doesn’t receive anything. He just needs to move forward. He is given just a small sign that he is going for something, a small, fabricated cloud. When can he feel the presence of the Creator more clearly? When he performs some violation and gets punished for it, “Oh! I came to know that that’s forbidden.” And then it turns out that one must do something. These egotistic desires are saying, “We don’t want to settle for the Creator’s request.”
Since what is the meaning of MAN (Mayin Nukvin – Female Water) in the desert? Specifically thanks to my being in the desert, I have nothing. It is from the state of complete hopelessness that I can find the one and only way, the way to the Creator. I no longer have anyone to turn to! When I turn to him, it is called MAN. This means that MAN is the raising of my prayer, specifically my request to the Creator and only in the desert! Only when I am completely empty and I have nothing, not for the benefit of the body and for the sake of those near me, and not even for the next world. So then I can turn to Him. And by doing that I fill myself, this turning to the Creator fills me.
Actually, I don’t receive anything except a one-sided connection with the Creator. If I act in this way, then MAN comes to me from the sky, and I am nourished from it and begin to fill my soul. But it is filled only by my turning to the Creator! Thus, we are not talking about MAD (Mayin Duchrin – Male Waters), which is the filling from above (answer from the Creator), but specifically from the fabricated referral, one-sided, unanswered, not based on anything for the Creator, from within the state of hopelessness.
I don’t want any favors or pleasures of this world, I don’t want anything except the desert that makes it possible for me to turn to him in a one-sided manner (that’s because it’s not known if I turn to Him or not), and that’s enough for me. That fills my soul. If in this way I can move forward, then I go into the desert and pass through it. It is said that the manna had all kinds of flavors. Everything that I feel in the manna depends on how much I can connect the egoistic desires to my relation to the Creator. Then accordingly, I feel that I, as if, am filled with all kinds of things.
From KabTV’s “Secrets of the Eternal Book” 2/11/15