The point this question is asked from is very important. A question symbolizes your connection to a phenomenon and your ability to clarify its source. I don’t think that you are in a state where you can find the right answer to a certain question. This cannot be below the Machsom.
All of reality descends from Above and it is all above the Machsom. Below the Machsom, there is the fictitious world. What we see here is a corrupt and distorted replica of the spiritual world according to which it is impossible to understand anything. This is your perception at the moment, just like all the other people who yearn to fill their corporeal desires for food, sex, family, money, respect, and knowledge.
On the other hand, you learn that bestowal is a good thing. On one hand, you ask a question and, on the other hand, you want to find an answer. This won’t work until this picture is stabilized as a unified picture: either on this side of the Machsom or on the other side of the Machsom, but it is impossible to ask on one side about what happens on the other side. So it is impossible to answer such questions.
From the 2nd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 3/31/14, The Zohar