Baal HaSulam, Shamati #179, ” Three Lines”: The first line is considered right, regarded as Vak without a Rosh (head), considered “faith.” The second line is considered left, attainment. And then they are in dispute, since faith contradicts attainment, and attainment contradicts faith.
Then there is the discernment of the middle line, considered Vak de Gar, or Hochma and Hassadim, or the right and left lines, integrated in one another. This means that he receives attainment to the extent that he has faith.
Question: Why does faith contradict attainment and attainment contradicts faith?
Answer: Faith and attainment cannot be integrated. Faith is called bestowal. If I am on the right line, it stops me from receiving at the same time. If I have the intention of in order to receive on the left line, it doesn’t allow me to bestow.
I cannot do both at the same time. It is like entering your home and stealing from yourself and at the same time giving yourself a present. It is impossible! The revelation of the Creator is opposite from bestowal upon the Creator. Revelation means that I am using Him, enjoying Him, filling my vessels.
Is it possible in such an action to bestow upon the Creator? It is possible only if I correct my intentions and receive because He wants it and He enjoys my receiving. If I really correct myself this way, so that my receiving is only in order to delight Him, it is called to receive in order to bestow.
But in order to reach this state, I have to prepare myself so that I will really receive above my desire to receive and my intention is steadfastly in order to bestow so that I will not be tempted to receive for myself, but so that it will really be an action in order to bestow that will lead me to adhesion with the Creator.
I have to calculate precisely the limit that I can receive. There are many levels of building the vessel of the middle line here: Ibur (conception), Yenika (suckling), and Mochin (mind).
From the 2nd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 3/31/14, Shamati #179