Question: How can I discover the game the Creator plays with me if I understand nothing and examine His behavior on the basis of my egoism?

Answer: In every moment of my life, I need to assess my state not by how it is perceived in my senses, but to think how the Creator acts within me, as the hand inside a glove or a puppet. This would mean that I connect myself with the Creator, the slave with the master, and want to reveal the force that acts in the slave. This upper force is the Creator.

I strive to reveal Him not from idle curiosity, as a researcher, and not out of greed, as a thief. I want to make sure that He acts in everything for my benefit. And if I think that something is not so, then I have to correct my attitude there. Thus, I come to adhesion with Him.

We need to be constantly inside the two principles simultaneously, “No one will help me but myself” and “There is none else besides Him.” I perform all the actions, and there is none else besides Him who is inside me. His controlling hand moves me from within and directs in everything.

But at the same time, while I obey Him in everything, I am like a horse that is as one with the rider, performing my work myself. I have many questions, thoughts, and doubts that toss me from side to side, but we with the Creator, I have to reach the state when we do not interfere with each other. He will manage me with His hand the way He pleases, and I will feel myself completely free as if He does not control me.

We find it hard to understand how this split is possible, but there is no distance between these two concepts. Hence you should understand what unity means. I act 100 percent on my own, and the Creator acts 100 percent on me, and at the same time, we do not interfere with each other and participate together in every action, ideally synchronized. This is called adhesion.

I am not giving up my senses and mind, but use them fully, all my critical judgment. I do not cancel myself so that the Creator does with me whatever He wants. Only then it is called adhering face to face.
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From the 1^st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 7/8/13, Writings of Baal HaSulam

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