When a person comes to the point when he perceives reality as a certain force field, he begins to attach to it various properties of this world, clarifying how they should change so as to fit into this allegedly spiritual picture. Then it becomes clearer to him that he and everybody else are desires that repulse one another, but must unite.
And in order to unite, they need an additional force that would connect them together. After all, each of them possesses only an opposite force that repels others. But all of them exist in an ocean of Light that is able to perform any change since this is the force of the Creator. However, He acts only as the correct desires become revealed from the part of the created beings.
And if despite their mutual repulsion, these egoistic desires begin to show the slightest, even artificial, aspiration to unite, the force field, the upper Light, the Creator, begins to act upon them. For the meantime, it acts from afar, in accord to a great distance that separates an artificial request from the true one. Yet, it nevertheless affects them and begins to gradually bring them closer to Him.
On one side, the Light acts upon the created beings in order to draw them closer to itself. And from the other, as a result of coming closer, the created beings, in accordance to their inner properties, begin to feel an even greater contradiction with and repulsion from each other. It follows that two opposite sensations manifest here.
On one hand, the Light works and lets us feel an increasingly stronger connection. But at the same time, we feel how we ourselves do not correspond to this connection and don’t want it. However, we need to understand that all these revelations come from the Light itself, and specifically thanks to our coming closer together we now see how opposite to each other we are.
We feel two components in every state: our own egoistic broken nature and the nature of the Light, which penetrates us and holds us together.
The further we advance, the deeper we will reveal our evil nature and the good nature of the Light, until this gap between these two poles turns into a distance between the point of this world and the point of the world of Infinity. The difference between these concepts is what determines the volume of the vessel in which the creature senses the essence of the Creator relative to its opposite nature. The entire might of the Light of Infinity becomes revealed specifically in this vessel.
Until the creature discovers these differences, until the entire difference between the egoistic intention and the bestowing one becomes clarified, the upper Light remains at the first, “still” degree of Nefesh. After all, it acts only according to the desire and the program of the upper one, without the participation of the creature, and thus only the most basic Light of Nefesh de Nefesh manifests here.
When the lower one reveals its entire dissimilarity to the upper one, the revelation of the Creator, which it receives relative to its own qualities, is “620” times greater in its might.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 4/26/2012, Writings of Baal HaSulam