All the forces and details of perception come to us from Above, from the Light that acts on us. But it acts according to our efforts, when we nevertheless want to do something, even though we are not able to. From one hand, we are not able to, but on the other, we try anyway.
And this is the true effort: I have no chance, but I want it anyway. Yes, I am an egoist. That is clear to me. And nevertheless, without forgetting this, I perform certain actions as if they were actions of bestowal.
This is a game, but a serious one, and I want to play by its rules. I have been given this opportunity, and I want to take advantage of it. Even though I have plastic toys, what can I do, I work with what I have. Of course, it is not enough for me, but it doesn’t weaken me. I want to at least somehow be similar to the Creator, like a monkey that imitates man.
And then I invite upon myself the Surrounding Light. It is called “Surrounding” since it illuminates from afar on the desires the Light has absolutely no connection with due to their opposition. However, they do try, and then the Light illuminates on them from afar. Thanks to this, they begin to understand and feel a little more, receive more heaviness of the heart, and continue the work until they fill the needed measure of effort.
It is impossible to realize any spiritual act until the upper Light grants us spiritual attributes. And until then, we need to continue to be involved with “simulation” and to be thankful that we received access at least to this. Even if the Creator wants me to do this until the end of my life, although I am neither lazy nor resigned, I agree.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 4/4/2012, Writings of Rabash