Question: Your teacher Rabash knew all the states that you were going through. Knowing that you had to go through terrible despair, hopelessness, could he not have helped you in any way?

Answer: Did he not go through such states himself? He went through them the same way I am now, the same way my students go through and will go through them.

Every Kabbalist goes through absolutely all states. That is why he can write for us. No soul, starting from our world and up to complete correction, can jump over any state.

Question: You said that Rabash was patient and that you could even yell at him. Was there ever a time when he wanted to kick you out?

Answer: No, he understood everything. Once, after Rabash’s death, I met a friend that earlier had studied together with me at his place. And he told me: “I remember that you once did not want to go to the sea with Rabash as an escort because you were terribly offended and angry about something. And then I went with him.

While at the sea he said: “Let’s call Michael anyway.” I called you and told you that Rabash wants to talk to you. And you answered: “Tell him I don’t want to talk to him.”

I told him what you said and asked: “Why don’t you kick him out?” And Rabash replied: “I’m not kicking Michael out because he has a special soul.”

That is, he understood that I was really in a terrible state and could not behave in any other way, and whatever was going on with me passes. But with this call, he accelerated my spiritual development.

Of course, he saw who I was, what I was: on one hand, a jerk, but on the other hand, I still had a lot of potential, and therefore he tolerated me.

But I was as loyal to him as I could be! Of course, I had very difficult conditions when I was worried, smoked, shouted, and swore. I don’t think I could have behaved any differently today. No.
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From KabTV’s “I Got a Call. Laitman’s Exile” 1/29/10

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