Comment: Every time I reveal how bad I am, I feel bad because of it.

My Response: We truly do not know what it means to bestow or what we are advancing toward. Yet, according to what is revealed to me along the way, I can see that I am advancing in the direction of bestowal, toward something opposite to my nature. There are signs that help me understand this.

I do not know how I am advancing. I also do not know how the surrounding light acts on me. I do not know why something changes and comes to me or by which particular efforts this happens. But you do see that it is happening.

Yes, at present, you do not know who or what is working on you or how it is being done. Perhaps you are simply told to exert efforts in order to keep yourself occupied, while in the meantime work is being done on you. None of this is important. What is important is that you see the signs appearing along the path: the revelation of evil, when you perceive the will to receive as evil, suffer because of it, and are ashamed of it. And although afterward you cope with it and continue living, nevertheless, there are times when you feel it as evil.

With your mind, you understand that this is how you advance. Usually, after the revelation of evil and such states, you feel a renewal in both the desire to bestow and the desire to receive. New inner discernments (Avchanot) come to you one opposite the other. You experience flashes—a new understanding, a new perception, a new approach. These are precisely the signs.

Naturally, at the next stage, you again do not know where you are going. Again you become confused, and all your previous intellect and wisdom do not help you and give you nothing. But if you look at what is happening to you as signs, as though it were written for you in an instruction manual that this is how it must be, then you can rejoice in it.

You should not rejoice because you are confused, in despair, or exhausted, but because the truth is being revealed to you. If you rejoice in the state itself, then you will no longer wish to advance further, and you will sit with folded hands, consuming yourself from within. You will not even want to move from your place. This is not good.

It is not a matter of being dissatisfied with your current state, but rather being grateful that this state has come to you, because from it, you can continue advancing further. This is a sign that you are on the right path. Later, this will become the sufferings of love.

That is, one must work with the mind, clarifying and analyzing. And although you are still under the rule of your will to receive, you nevertheless begin to understand what the desire to bestow is in relation to the desire to receive.

If you begin to see that, in some respect you suffer because of your will to receive; it means that in that place the light has been revealed to you. Then the difference between the qualities of the light and your own qualities awakens within you a feeling of shame and suffering.

Therefore, it is important to rejoice in the signs that are revealed to us and to listen to them.
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From the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 7/24/26, Rabash, “What “Israel Do the Creator’s Will” Means in the Work”

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