The more an athlete trains, the stronger he or she becomes, that is, the more one strengthens one’s egoism. Therefore, he is always pleased with his achievements.
A Kabbalist, on the contrary, wants to weaken his egoism through the studies in order to rise above it. This is why the state of egoism seems to be unfortunate, but for a Kabbalist this is a desirable state because he wants to conquer his egoism.
From the 1st Part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 11/15/20, “Work with Faith Above Reason”