There is a constant struggle between the importance of the goal and our feelings. If the goal is important, it makes no difference what states we go through along the way. It’s like a patient waiting for an operation knowing that although the treatment is unpleasant it is meant to save his life.
We should also understand that the Creator sends us more and more disappointments, darkness, feelings of helplessness, and unpleasant states on purpose. We, on the other hand, have to keep on increasing the importance of the goal so that the goal will be more important for us than the current state and what we feel. It’s a sign that the Creator “hardens Pharaoh’s heart,” and sends us more troubles.
It makes no difference how clever a person is and whether he is sensitive or not; everyone must go through this and hold on to faith and to the general power of bestowal he receives from the environment. Then you will not lose direction and the importance of the goal in states of the”hardening of the heart.” This actually depends only on the balance between the forces that operate on a person. It can all be measured. If the goal was important for you and you dedicated yourself to the group in order to receive the support you need now, the Creator can harden your heart even more, and you can thus shorten the way and you advance along the path of “I shall hasten it” (Achishena), towards the goal.
The path of the Light, “I shall hasten it,” is not feeling constant troubles; of course, the path of “I shall hasten it” means that the importance of the goal helps you climb every summit and fall into every pit and still come out of all these hard states. It’s because you are constantly looking ahead at the importance of the goal. So, no matter what knocks you off your feet, whether it lowers you or raises you upwards, you keep on advancing consistently like a baby crawling on all fours.
We must understand that we have to reach the hardening of the heart that will fill our measure to the fullest and at the same time allow us to struggle and keep our connection so that it will illuminate for us and keep us from getting off track and letting go. We will be more aware of how essential the Light that Reforms is time and time again. We thank the Creator for the sufferings He brings us because it’s thanks to them that we need Him. We understand that we can turn to the Creator only together by connecting and by the prayer of many.
If we know how to fulfill our mission, then the work we have to do doesn’t seem difficult at all and is actually pleasant. Although it requires our constant overcoming, it becomes a sport. We enjoy the efforts that we make if we see a clear goal before us. Thus we advance speedily.
So there are two conditions that help us not to give up the hardest work there is: being incorporated in the group and thanks to this reaching the recognition of the importance of the goal. If we fulfill all that, we will feel grateful to the Creator and reach a prayer in response to which there will come such a measure of the Light that Reforms that it will raise us to the first spiritual level, to the world of Assiya.
From the Preparation to the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 12/3/13