Baal HaSulam, Shamati #33, “The Lots On Yom Kippurim and with Haman”: We must know that what appears to one as things that contradict the guidance of “Good that Doeth Good,” is only to compel one to draw the Upper Light on the contradictions, when wanting to prevail over the contradictions…
It means that the contradictions can be annulled if one wants to overcome them, only if one extends the greatness of the Creator.
A person works and exerts himself, which means that he studies, teaches, and participates in different activities in the group, and simply falls off his feet because he is so tired. As a result, different questions come up: “Well, when? How? Why?” And there is no answer for these questions until he fills his measure.
Then he understands that he probably lacks quantity and quality in his exertion. The main thing in one’s exertion is the quality. But how can that be attained? In most cases a person feels helpless and doesn’t know what to do and remains idle.
Here he begins to feel that he cannot advance without the importance of the goal because he advances by the friends pressuring and pushing him, by feeling uncomfortable and ashamed and that he has no choice, not because the Creator’s greatness illuminates for him, and certainly not because a thought about delighting the Creator invokes him.
He begins to clarify things in order to understand what motivates him. Of course it is the ego that motivates him, but does he have to be connected to the goal of creation? Although I am an egoist, I am at least locked on and focused on the upper force, on the Creator, and not on the environment. So that it isn’t people who should compel him to advance but the Creator, since after all, there has to be some connection to the truth.
A person sees that he greatly exerts himself, he participates in everything that the society does, and he feels that he is utterly exhausted, but the reason for all his hard work is completely the wrong reason. His reason isn’t spiritual. So by that he reaches the right calculation no matter how unpleasant it is and he understands that he has to correct himself and continue. Thus he instantly corrects his route.
He sees that he advances by obstacles, problems, disappointments, and afflictions that are revealed. It is actually thanks to his overcoming the Aviut (thickness), the hardening of the heart, the complaints, the inner struggle, and the dissatisfaction that he can reveal the Creator’s greatness, as it is said about the exile in Egypt that the Creator seemed greater to Moses and the nation of Israel by causing Pharaoh’s hardening of the heart.
There is no other choice. We have to discover the rough, hard, and despaired egoistic desire, so that in contrast to it, the Creator’s greatness will be revealed. The main thing is not to allow yourself to escape and hide from the afflictions or to look for an easy way out since by that a person stalls and doesn’t reach the hard Dinim and the clarifications by which he can discover the Creator’s glory. This happens to everyone, but we have to learn from this experience and to do everything possible in order to avoid this natural inclination of slowing down and all the excuses to justify ourselves.
From the 2nd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 5/30/14, Shamati #33 The Lots on Yom Kippurim and Haman”