Our desire to receive pleasure is in a constant process of development. From the moment this desire was created by the Light “from absence,” this “absence” began developing under the Light’s influence, and it continues to do so—from the beginning of creation to its end.
There are stages in this development where the desire to receive isn’t yet considered the creature and is still building its still, vegetative, and animate levels: the system of spiritual nature. Later, within this spiritual nature the soul is created, called Adam, “man,” the speaking level. This soul also develops on the still, vegetative, and animate levels, in the worlds of BYA (Assiya, the still level, Yetzira, the vegetative level, and Beria, the animate level).
However, man himself has to build the human level within. If man doesn’t build himself as a human, he exists like an animal and uses all that surrounds him on the still, vegetative, and animate levels (all the worlds of BYA) egoistically, by taking the most he can get out of it. That’s how we develop, by sucking out from the surrounding nature all sorts of fulfillment that help us grow in our egoism.
However, when we reach the level where we’ve drained almost everything from nature, we begin to feel that our egoistic desire is opposite to the level of “human,” the world of Atzilut. Our lives become bitter, and we don’t know who to blame. After all, the world of Atzilut is concealed from us, and we exist below the Parsa (the border that separates Atzilut from the worlds of BYA).
This is why a person doesn’t understand why he’s so unhappy. It seems that he has his whole life laid out before him to enjoy. However, we don’t receive the additional Light, which can’t cross the Parsa from the world of Atzilut and descend to us through the worlds of BYA, and we—the human part within us—feel bad. This human within us is opposite to the real human level, to Zeir Anpin of the world of Atzilut. This is how we begin to aspire to reveal the source of our life, as well as its meaning and purpose.
Our entire work is to write “black on white.” The world of Atzilut is called “white.” And “black” is our lowest level and the color of the world of Assiya. Red is the color of the world of Beria, green is Yetzira, and black is Assiya. Everything is written on white background, on the “upper whiteness” (Loven Elyon) of the world of Atzilut.
A person that writes is one who examines and measures himself in relation to the world of Atzilut. He wishes to become like the human of the world of Atzilut, but upon examining himself sees the extent to which he doesn’t correspond to this image. This is how he advances.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 9/25/2011, Writings of Rabash