Reason does not obligate us to work in bestowal. We find that we are completely unprepared to ask for it, not ready for bestowal and unity. We still need to grow this desire in ourselves because initially we are just egoists and do not differ in this from animals.
If we want to discover the point in our heart, the godly part from above, the sprout of bestowal, we must put a lot of effort into this and help each other in the group. We cultivate the power of bestowal in us as if from a drop of seed embedded in us up to its full measure, which is called soul.
The Creator is not revealed as if He were somewhere far away and at last I went there and found Him. I must feel the Creator within me, feel this quality in me. At one point I want to receive for myself, and then I want to give—these qualities are revealed inside a person.
The Creator is “close” to me or “far away”—this means whether I want to be like Him or not, whether or not I want the quality of bestowal to rule over me.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 11/22/20, “Work with Faith Above Reason”